[bluemountains]

*Sorry this is so long-I guess not being able to talk with T today put me in a typing mood!*

My t scheduled me incorrectly, double-booked today, and mine was a misunderstanding on her part-she scheduled it for next Friday even though I specifically requested this Friday and she had confirmed this through email. I have been trying to stretch out our meetings to every two weeks but I sometimes need one in-between and this was the one I needed.
Earlier in the week I had an uncontrollable crying spell, one I could luckily hide from my students because it was my mainly during my planning period, triggered by a stupid comment made by another teacher. She was commenting on a parent and said that she didn't know that bipolar people could work, stated in a very condescending manner. It sounds trivial when I type it and shows how super-sensitive I am, but the comment put me into tears all day. Except for a couple of close friends, I hide my diagnosis from other coworkers, so she didn't make the comment to hurt me, but still it shows the ignorance of those who don't take the time to understand. Btw, this teacher does know that my son has a bipolar dx, and she is a special ed. teacher! My depressed mood over this comment lasted for two days.
Back to the therapist-I understand her mistake, I have made mistakes with the schedule a couple of times in the past and she has been kind enough not to charge me. Also, she was able to talk with me before her next client arrived for about ten minutes. I just wish that she had offered a phone call or something so that I could take more time to talk through this. I have a very hard time accepting my bipolar dx, so I could have used more of a pep talk, at least, or some coping strategies to pull myself out of the depression quicker. Also, every time I take off from work it costs me because I have no sick days left, so some resolution would have been nice.

Anyway, if you are still reading, thanks for letting me vent. I am sure by the time I have my regularly scheduled appointment with T week after next I will have pulled it together.
Bluemountains

I am so sorry. Sometimes people are more hurtful when they are thoughtless than when they are deliberately cruel.

[Mike_J]

I know that I'm a bit off whenever my therapist has to cancel an appointment for whatever reason. Never been double booked, she still uses a old fashion day planner to do her scheduling, take me 30 minutes to have my dentists office for a cleaning as the mess with the computer. Sometimes a pencil and paper are the best way.

Any way you can get in early next week?

[Snuffleupagus]

Sorry to hear about the schedule screw up. It is very difficult when we're depending on an appt. and it disappears.

The insensitive comment woman doesn't deserve headspace in your brain. It is her damn problem and failure of imagination. Maybe if you can pity her for small mindedness, it might help you take back some power.

[Nightlight]

I can understand why that comment hurt, and why you were so upset over it. It would have affected me as well. I never share my diagnosing as I don't really feel the need to. I probably am a little bit ashamed of what I struggle with, but it's been a long time and I've grown up just getting on with things, while hiding how difficult life really is for me.

The comment was pretty ignorant! It's actually quite sad that someone who thinks like that teaches special ed. I've volunteer before, working with children and some adults, with severe disabilities. It gives you such an understanding of the challenges people face, and how unique and different and valuable everyone is, including those who struggle in different ways.

It is really rough that the mix-up happened with your appointment this week. I definitely relate to that too, as last week, after a really, really rough week, I showed up for my apt and T didn't arrive. However I could hear loud laughing from her office. So I was there after the lowest of lows, claw-my-way-through the week, just made it...and T's obviously mixed up the times. It was a stark contrast, laughing, compared to the way I was feeling, along with knowing that I wasn't scheduled on top of that. It was quite an uncomfortable feeling.

Sorry the bad stuff hit all at once for you! There are lots of people in the world who value you, as you are. I do - just because of what you shared. The diagnosis is obviously not something I would wish on anyone, but it does give you a unique appreciation of the way other people feel, and you certainly wouldn't be someone who makes a silly ignorant comment about an illness, like the other teacher did.

((((((((Bluemountains))))))))))))

[WikidPissah]

Originally Posted by bluemountains

Anyway, if you are still reading, thanks for letting me vent. I am sure by the time I have my regularly scheduled appointment with T week after next I will have pulled it together.
Bluemountains

vent away. the situation really sux, I wish she would have fixed it with a phone call, or an appt after your workday.

[bluemountains]

Originally Posted by Nightlight

It is really rough that the mix-up happened with your appointment this week. I definitely relate to that too, as last week, after a really, really rough week, I showed up for my apt and T didn't arrive. However I could hear loud laughing from her office. So I was there after the lowest of lows, claw-my-way-through the week, just made it...and T's obviously mixed up the times. It was a stark contrast, laughing, compared to the way I was feeling, along with knowing that I wasn't scheduled on top of that. It was quite an uncomfortable feeling.

(((Nightlight)))
I am so sorry at such a vulnerable time you had to listen to laughter of another client, and then to miss the session you expected was awful for you, I'm sure.
Bluemountains