End of my relationship

Still thinking of you Lilly! I'm really proud (is it okay for me to say that about you?) of how you're handling and dealing with this - you inspire me!

@MKAC he's open to having kids and I think he'd be a good dad. He's very kind and loving and jolly... but honestly I don't know if he truly wants that in his heart. His life seems to be in a different place than mine. He's in party-mode almost all the time. And my fear about having kids with him is his fiscal irresponsibility. I would have to feel able to support the kids on my income alone and not count on any help from him, not because he wouldn't want to but because he doesn't seem to be able to generate a steady income for himself let alone dependents. I think if we had kids I would support them and on the occasion that he came into some money he would shower them with gifts but it would be inconsistent.

@BashfulBear thank you hon. I am one of those who likes hearing that people are proud of me. I never once heard it as a child and still today have never heard my parents say they're proud of me so it's a welcome and appreciate compliment. Thank you.