[canuck1971]

I have been having lots of nightmares lately. I just mentioned jokingly maybe I needed a dreamcatcher to keep away nightmares.

She has a few of them in her office. I never dreamed that she would give me one. She offered I said no, but then at end of session she gave it to me.

I took it, but feel guilty for taking it, not sure why. She seemed happy to give it to me, but still feel guilty because I think another client probably deserves it more than I do .

Sheesh....why can't I just accept it and be done with it.....

[Crescent Moon]

Originally Posted by canuck1971

I have been having lots of nightmares lately. I just mentioned jokingly maybe I needed a dreamcatcher to keep away nightmares.

She has a few of them in her office. I never dreamed that she would give me one. She offered I said no, but then at end of session she gave it to me.

I took it, but feel guilty for taking it, not sure why. She seemed happy to give it to me, but still feel guilty because I think another client probably deserves it more than I do .

Sheesh....why can't I just accept it and be done with it.....

Canuck... keep it.. cherish it. It represents the gift of relationship that she's also given you. It doesn't matter that *you* don't think you're worth it. *SHE* thinks you're worth it. You matter to her. For therapy to get deep and effective, you have to carry her with you in your mind and heart. You have to hear her voice in your head - replaying things she's said. That's what it looks like when you are 'internalizing' your therapist. Before long, her voice will merge with your own, and instead of telling yourself "I'm not worthy," you'll be telling yourself "My therapist really cares about me. I'm care-worthy." And that is the most exquisite feeling for those of us who haven't ever felt we've been worth it to anyone.

So - hang onto that dream catcher - and although it may make you cringe for a while - let it yell at you "Hey! You matter to me! I want you to take my care with you - to go to sleep feeling it - to wake up knowing it's there."

[autotelica]

Treasure it. It's nice to give AND receive.

My therapist gave me some incontinent pads today*. I don't need them, but I did need the gesture behind them. Maybe your therapist sensed you were in a similar situation.





*If someone ever creates a "surreal moments in therapy" thread, I'll share the story.

[Wren_]

that is precious your T did that ... I hope having something from your T will help

*If someone ever creates a "surreal moments in therapy" thread, I'll share the story.

you should begin one

Originally Posted by autotelica

Treasure it. It's nice to give AND receive.

My therapist gave me some incontinent pads today*. I don't need them, but I did need the gesture behind them. Maybe your therapist sensed you were in a similar situation.





*If someone ever creates a "surreal moments in therapy" thread, I'll share the story.

I definitely need to hear this story. Do share.

[autotelica]

I told her about a bathroom accident I had at work last week. When I started crying about it, she abruptly left the room. A couple of seconds later she came back with the pads.

I don't know why she gave them to me. I don't have incontinent issues. It was just a one-time thing. But I took them anyway because it didn't matter. She was trying to make me feel better ("It happens to us all!"). So I let her make me feel better.

I guess it wasn't such a surreal moment after all.

[Wren_]

It sounds caring though; just as canuck receiving the dreamcatcher does

I'm jealous, but in a good way...how sweet.

Originally Posted by Crescent Moon

For therapy to get deep and effective, you have to carry her with you in your mind and heart. You have to hear her voice in your head - replaying things she's said. That's what it looks like when you are 'internalizing' your therapist. Before long, her voice will merge with your own, and instead of telling yourself "I'm not worthy," you'll be telling yourself "My therapist really cares about me. I'm care-worthy." And that is the most exquisite feeling for those of us who haven't ever felt we've been worth it to anyone.

crescent i love how you worded this. beautiful!

[delicatefade26]

ohh how special-I love this <3 I also understand the difficulty in accepting it-but I hope that you can ease into the ability to cherish this gift-it's neat ; )

[KazzaX]

There is no "Dreamcatcher Worthiness List"!! Just accept and enjoy

Definitely just enjoy it.. That was very sweet of your t.
My t gives me presents sometimes and it just makes us so happy.

[WikidPissah]

I understand what you mean, I would have a difficult time accepting it as well. I think it's very special though, and you deserve it.


Auto... that is sweet as well. A lot of women do use them.

[Butterflies Are Free]

I love dream catchers - so glad you have such a caring T who supports you so much!