So ...My therapy ended in June. I keep posting in here about paperwork and now ex T ignoring me.

That´s just a detail and maybe why I can´t handle that situation.

I lost my mum before the age of one. My dad was never really around mentally.

I don´t want kids myself but my former T wanted me to " admit" and regionise that I have been neglected.

This is such a silly question: But what´s the point??

I have been crying/ getting angry etc. for three months now AND prior to that... seriously what´s the point of this?

I am having a BLIND SPOT I know. I am tired, crying and a mess. I do function IRL but then I keep thinking of my ex T and it will never end ( ex T eye gazing, hugs now uhmmm ignoring me)

I can read other peoples threads with a clear head...yet I am so stuck on why I react this way...sorry. What´s the point of making a connection with my t then she´s " leaving" like my mum did? Obviously I can´t remember ... but still....

Mommy issues are hard and its a very common type of attachment. I am sorry, I know how painful this must be. Have you thought of seeking out a New T to help you overcome the old T. Maybe a man this time?

[struggling2]

Mommy issues are so hard. Ugh. I feel for you. Im there right now too. Its such an emotional necessity as a child to have a good mom and its so hard to deal with when you are getting pieces of that relationship from a therapist. Its like "i dont want to grieve that i was emotionally and affectionately neglected by my mom cause then I will even more want YOU to be my mom!" no fair!

[unaluna]

agree with lola, is it possible to find a new t? don't like to see you or anybody, really, have to deal with this on your own. you have the insight, use it.

AWh, what an awful place to be in, its so hard for you right now... I agree with Lola also to get a new T, it worked for me because even though I think of T1 a lot I am now able to stop thinking about her so much.
Abandonment mommy issues are horrible, did your t work through your abandonment issues?
I never wanted to admit my parents neglected me either but when T made me sit down and realise that this is what happened it was the worst month of my life, I was angry sad, I felt like I had betrayed my parents, I was mad at them for doing this, hell, I was mad at everyone who even looked at me.
I think also Lola is right too about a male T just because of tranference and you will prbabaly have strong feelings for any female Ts that care about you. I wish I could take Lola's advice too.
I hope things get better for you soon xxx

[~EnlightenMe~]

Originally Posted by lonelybychoice

So ...My therapy ended in June. I keep posting in here about paperwork and now ex T ignoring me.

That´s just a detail and maybe why I can´t handle that situation.

I lost my mum before the age of one. My dad was never really around mentally.

I don´t want kids myself but my former T wanted me to " admit" and regionise that I have been neglected.

This is such a silly question: But what´s the point??

I have been crying/ getting angry etc. for three months now AND prior to that... seriously what´s the point of this?

I am having a BLIND SPOT I know. I am tired, crying and a mess. I do function IRL but then I keep thinking of my ex T and it will never end ( ex T eye gazing, hugs now uhmmm ignoring me)

I can read other peoples threads with a clear head...yet I am so stuck on why I react this way...sorry. What´s the point of making a connection with my t then she´s " leaving" like my mum did? Obviously I can´t remember ... but still....

Read some of my older ones when I was terminataed, and it will make you feel better I understand, it is hard to read how helpful other T's are when you don't have one. It almost makes one feel inconsequential, at least it did me. No worries, your reactions are quite normal, and I hope you start feeling better soon.

Thanks guys! I sort of needed some hugs and get some validation on this one. This is why this is such an amazing forum.It´s hard for people to understand and I don´t really talk about my " mommy/ therapists issues IRL...( other than blaming the whole think on some " papers that needs to be filled out" by T

Crazy and hard stuff for me at this point in time

I have been thinking about getting a new T and a male one this time, but I am worried it won´t really matter and that I end up having a erotic transference instead.

Sometimes I wish I had never been in therapy, but I guess I sort of need it...hmm

to all of you