Exorcism, post-therapy

mcl6136 · Oct 03, 2012, 12:28 PM

Sorry about the over-the-top thread title. Just attention-seeking behavior, I'm afraid. No, I haven't called an exorcist.

Yesterday on this forum, a few of us (LC, SD, thanks!), developed the notion of doing a ceremony, which I am now calling an exorcism. I am going to burn (and release the energy from) the receipts that my cold old distant T sent me in the mail recently, out of the blue.

Getting the receipts stirred up my (latent) paranoia about this ex-T, and brought back to mind all the bad feeelings about my awful therapy experience, which I quit some time ago....

Getting the receipts caused me to have some bad days.... I decided to wait and plan more fully for my ceremony of "energy clearing" after my bad T.

I've scheduled it for this evening. It's snowing here, which helps in some odd way. Let it snow!

Here's how my ritual will proceed, I hope: I will write ex T a note (which I will not send), bringing my feelings to the fore. I am burning the receipts, and developing a little chant. Then I am going to meditate on how I might have acted differently during therapy with the old T, and give some thought to why I did not leave earlier despite my major qualms, and the way that I shelve things, hoping they will change for the better, and how I persist in bad situations, hoping the other person will change and treat me in the manner that I think I deserve (yeah, I know...right?!). I feel like I really switched off a lot of my faculties of discernment and intuition in order to do that therapy, and thinking back on it creeps me seriously.

I have a lot to think about but I have a good feeling about my ceremony. I hope it will help me banish this baloney and ready myself for a helpful, smart therapist in the next few months.

All of this has really been weighing me down. I feel like I'm being de-programmed from a cult. And no, my beverage of choice for tonight's ritual will not be Kool Aid.

Wish me luck!

Oct 03, 2012, 12:33 PM

MCL.... excellent plan, Id burn some sage too just to clear the air of bad spirits!

Exorcism, post-therapy

mcl6136 · Oct 03, 2012, 12:35 PM

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Originally Posted by LolaCabanna

MCL.... excellent plan, Id burn some sage too just to clear the air of bad spirits!

Exorcism, post-therapy

sage will be included! I'm in the wild west and the stuff grows everywhere!

Perna · Oct 03, 2012, 01:58 PM

I just recently bought a shredder

I think I'd shred the receipts and some newspapers and use the mixture for kitty litter rather than make a formal "important" process around it; former-T doesn't deserve that kind of attention?

mcl6136 · Oct 03, 2012, 02:17 PM

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Originally Posted by Perna

I just recently bought a shredder

I think I'd shred the receipts and some newspapers and use the mixture for kitty litter rather than make a formal "important" process around it; former-T doesn't deserve that kind of attention?

Well, being a dog person here...hmmmm....maybe my best friend would treat the receipts like...homework?

skysblue · Oct 03, 2012, 02:28 PM

I think it's great that you're finding a way within yourself to move past this latest intrusion by xT.

Be sure to add some mindfulness exercise to your ritual. Continuing to hash over in mind past experiences is useful to a certain extent but working to find the calm center is ultimately the most healing.

stopdog · Oct 03, 2012, 05:19 PM

Sounds good. And along with sage put some sea salt in your corners.

WikidPissah · Oct 03, 2012, 06:29 PM

and have a wikitini. (chia juice and organic vegan vodka)

When I think of all I shelved with former t's it drives me crazy. I can't believe how stupid I was thinking they would change. So glad you (and I) got wake-up calls.