[TransferenceQueen]

Hi guys. First post here!

I'll just jump into it. About a year ago, I had seven or eight therapy sessions with an amazing T; we'll call her "Bambi". I'd had several Ts in the past, but she was different, and really seemed to want to help unlike others. Long story short, the moment I saw her, I thought '[Expletives]... She's gorgeous!'

It didn't take long for me to realise I was extremely physically and emotionally attracted to her. I thought about "Bambi" every second of the day (blah blah, you get my drift). I at first refused to accept it was transference- I was adamant I was truly in love with her (I'm a bisexual female so this wasn't hard to believe).

Eventually I realised that it MUST be transference, because I'd experienced it before and knew how intense a feeling it could be. That didn't stop me from writing her a letter telling her of my undying love and shoving it at her as I ran away after my last session (which meant I never got 'closure' as such).

Like I say, that was a year ago. My feelings have never gone, but they faded substantially- until last week. We started studying transference in psychology, and I guess it reminded me of those strong feelings, and I'm finding myself unable to get her out of my head again. I nearly emailed her earlier, but restrained myself.

Essentially, I don't know what to do. I was dealing with my feelings rather well until last week, and now it's like my brain has exploded again.
I'm craving her voice, and she has the most beautiful smile I've ever witnessed. "Bambi" is all I can think about, night and day, and I'm missing her like hell.

Any ideas on how I deal with this?

Is there any chance you can return to work through transference with her?

[TransferenceQueen]

Sorry for the late reply.

Essentially, no. It was a short term therapy through a long and complicated referral process. It would be near impossible to see her again...