[granite1]

today some thoughts from the past kept creeping into my head and yes it was very triggering and bothersome and it got me to wondering ,is this the kind of stuff you share with your T. i read a lot about people sharing memories and stuff with T but are vague in content.

i was thinking about the times that the mother hurt me so bad i needed to go to hospital and it got me so angry and upset.i had gone to hospital for stitches a few times and once because my head was split open and i had to stay there because of a concussion. things like that.it wasnt like she would just slap me accross the face although she did plenty of that.it got me angry about how it didnt bother any of these people at hospital no one questioned the mother.you see she worked in the lab there and it was a small hospital.in fact her best friend and the mother of the guy who CSA me was the head of radiology there.the mother was friends with all of them.so i guess they never questioned and i kept my mouth shut. i get angry at that a lot. i had had pic taken of all my bruises at times and were brought to a lawyer but because my farther didnt want the mother to go to jail even the lawyer did nothing. i get mad at these things sometimes and don't understand why it was like that.

my question is is this the stuff you all bring to your T and is so so hard to deal with and look at? is this what i should be putting into words for her? i know it is stupid but sometimes i have no clue what i should be saying or letting her know.or what she would want her to know .i know stupid but if i need to talk don't i need to know what to say first

[sconnie892]

Granite,
I would think those are the kinds of thoughts to share with your t. It might be difficult, but if they are invading your thoughts, talking about it might help.

I went through some invasive thoughts about my past and talking with t really helped. She helped me put them into perspective and provided me with some ways to deal with the thoughts when they were creeping in.

[sconnie892]

PS - That is not a stupid question at all. I think it is a great question!

[pbutton]

Yes - when I have thoughts that keep coming up in my head, I make a note to tell T about them. The examples you just gave us seem like very appropriate things for you to tell T.

[healed84]

Yep, I would for sure bring those up to your T!

[Ike McCaslin]

The only stupid questions are the ones not asked. It sounds like something you might benefit from talking with your T about.

Originally Posted by granite1

today some thoughts from the past kept creeping into my head and yes it was very triggering and bothersome and it got me to wondering ,is this the kind of stuff you share with your T. i read a lot about people sharing memories and stuff with T but are vague in content.

i was thinking about the times that the mother hurt me so bad i needed to go to hospital and it got me so angry and upset.i had gone to hospital for stitches a few times and once because my head was split open and i had to stay there because of a concussion. things like that.it wasnt like she would just slap me accross the face although she did plenty of that.it got me angry about how it didnt bother any of these people at hospital no one questioned the mother.you see she worked in the lab there and it was a small hospital.in fact her best friend and the mother of the guy who CSA me was the head of radiology there.the mother was friends with all of them.so i guess they never questioned and i kept my mouth shut. i get angry at that a lot. i had had pic taken of all my bruises at times and were brought to a lawyer but because my farther didnt want the mother to go to jail even the lawyer did nothing. i get mad at these things sometimes and don't understand why it was like that.

my question is is this the stuff you all bring to your T and is so so hard to deal with and look at? is this what i should be putting into words for her? i know it is stupid but sometimes i have no clue what i should be saying or letting her know.or what she would want her to know .i know stupid but if i need to talk don't i need to know what to say first

Granite, I am soooo sorry this happened to you.
You must have a lot of anger still trapped inside and I can understand why. These painful memories are tormenting you and you wonder why no one helped you or questioned your parents.
This is so alarming, that you were brought to the hospital and no one suspected foul play or maybe they did but were too afraid to question as your mmother was obviously well respected there. Often times its easier to turn a blind eye rather then confront somebody. Its heartbreaking that you had to suffer though and I only hope that things got better for you?

To answer your question- yes, this is the sort of thing you bring up in therapy. Because our past moulds our future. I don't know why you are in therapy now but I am guessing it has something to do with your abusive past?
T will know how to bring out all the anger and release those nasty feelings- best of luck.

[rainbow8]

Yes, granite. My T has always told me that nothing it TMI. When you are ready to talk, your T will be there for you to share all of that with. It's the kind of stuff you're going to T for, to work out and understand your past.

[murray]

Oh Granite I am so so sorry that you were put through that torture. It isn't right that you were treated that way and the people who should have helped you didn't do their job. So sorry.
As far as your question, not a stupid question at all. This is definitely something that I would try to share with T. Hopefully she can help you deal with the pain and anger associated with these memories.

[KazzaX]

That is horrible! It's like the whole thing was rigged. Its like the one place that can help you stop the abuse is the same place that your mother had already gotten her fangs into the other staff, so nobody did anything (even though im sure it was blatantly obvious what was happening). I'm sorry but its people like that that make me enraged. I want to just round them all up, take them out into the desert and shoot them.

you just say what you are thinking about, what is bothering you. you already know what those things are, you just have to let them out.