[Sila]

My t is awesome. ♥ I called her last night after having cried my eyes out for at least an hour or more over some friendship/betrayal issues that have been going on for a while. Phone calls are So hard for me. I panicked when I hit the voicemail for the office, and hung up without leaving a message. but then I decided to call her cell phone and I managed to leave a voicemail because it was her voice that was on the answering machine. I told her that I needed to talk to her, but I was heading out to dinner and couldn't receive a phone call for the rest of the night since by the time I got home it'd be late.

She called me back today, purposely waited until the afternoon because she remembered that I slept in late on most days and didn't want to wake me up. She helped me settle the thoughts running rampant through my mind, and reassured me. She also said she was "very proud of me for calling her", her words!!, and she knows that it's something that's very difficult for me. I started beaming, I've not been told by anyone that they're "proud of me" in years. It sounded sincere too, she sounded happy.

I'm happy. I haven't been told 'I'm proud of you' in YEARS. I can't remember the last time someone told me that. I feel like I can make it until wednesday now.

[unaluna]

"i'm proud of you." seems like we hear that on TV all the time, that and "I promise". well, i'm proud of you, too. I know how hard it is to call, and I REALLY know how tough it is not to hear these words. I'm sure you deserved to hear them many times before now.

[Sila]

Thanks! i don't really know if I deserve to hear it, I can't think of much I've done that's "good" other than graduating HS. But it felt really good to hear it. It was an instant flood of calm over me...I'm trying really hard to make it all "work", to do what I'm capable of and be cooperative. This wednesday will be a very big day, since I won't see her the week after because of thanksgiving, and I have a lot to talk about.

[unaluna]

Well, my graduating high school AND college was taken for granted, and that was wrong. Nowadays, YOUR graduating high school is a pretty big deal. And you write very well.

Thats awesome.