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Good luck, I do feel it was unfair to have your family meeting before she leaves. As a parent I feel they should accommodate you while helping you put your coping skills into practice. Currently with the lose of your support (T) they should have "kids glove" on while helping you deal with your OCD. I hope your T session goes better.

It went ok but im nvr gonna hear the end of me not taking medication. She keeps pulling the AMA card.

That is because she feel the meds were one of the tools in your toolbox to help you cope with the difficult symptoms; you're refusing to utilize what could have been, and what she must feel was, a very useful tool.

Miswimmy

I'm so confused. I just wish that she would tell me what she wants, how to do it, what to expect, how long it's gonna take, etc.

Swimmy, I can understand your frustration right now. But it's unlikely that your t is going to tell you any of that. She might help you explore it, but it's not t's job to give you the answers. It's her job to help you find them for yourself.

That can be one of the hardest, but one of the most valuable lessons therapy has to give. Therapy is hard work. Finding our own answers is hard work. But it is so worth it. I don't want to hijack your thread with my own story, so let me just say I speak from having had some of the same feelings you are expressing and finding it does get better.

As for the AMA card you keep saying your t is pulling. There's a good reason for that. In her professional opinion she thinks the meds will be helpful for you. Professionally she is being very clear that your decision to not take them goes against her best judgement.

I will be sending you good thoughts for the time your t is away. FarmerGirl has some good advice. Think of what tools you already have or where you can learn some additional ones you might need (relaxation, meditation, etc.) You are strong. You can get through this.

Here is how I personally would look at what you have described.

In the recent past, you have made significant progress and managed some highly stressful situations. You got yourself home from school that one time under great duress. Your grades have been excellent. You developed your own plan about medication, reviewed it with PDoc, and stuck to it even in the face of some side effects and great resistance from T. You are in the process of getting back to your intense swim workouts. You developed your own detailed, in-depth support plan for dealing with T's impending absence.

In short, you have been, and are, exercising greater and greater control and responsibility in your life.

In view of the above, I am not surprised that T believes that you can do even more to help yourself. So do I.

I am not surprised that T is not showing you the way, small step by small step. Why would that be necessary or appropriate? You are strong and insightful and you have resources available if necessary. You can figure things out, and I have confidence that you will.

Miswimmy1,

I am sending you lots, and lots of hugs. One thing I need to say is: it is the responsibility of the parents to provide safety and security, along with a safe haven for their child. Your parents have fallen down on the job, and they have sent you to a therapist, and are saying, "Fix her. I'm sorry the adults in your life have felled you. You have no power to change this. They are the head of the family. Families are not democratic.

Nevertheless, you are in a situation that is going to require more than the extra strength you put out on a daily basis to stay in the meet. You're a fighter miswimmy1, so try to get in the mindset that you can do it with outside supports - many you discussed. It's not the best, when you would really like the perfect parents to be there for you - sorry mom and dad are letting you down. what's left -YOU. And, you are one smart cookie! It's two weeks, and it may be hard as hell, so get that in your mind, and say, I have to do it. Then wrap around it that,"I and my lean-ons can wait for T to heal." Continue to ask for ideas and support.

You are young and you have been forced into being an adult while you're still a kid. Yea, you'll hear how others say they were forced into doing it. If I can, you can. That deserves a, SO WHAT! You're not them, and they are not you. All your therapist, and friends are asking of you is to try. Replace those negative voices with positive ones, even if you add it's just for two weeks. then you can get back to the comfort of your therapist.

All the best, little,big one.

GTGT

If you want to hear the end of it, you will either have to show her and everyone else that you don't need medication (via behavioral strategies you have learned in therapy) or you will need to reconsider your decision. Both of those are very responsible ways of handling the situation.

What isn't so responsible is expecting to be left alone with your decisions AND expecting accommodation. The price of the latter is giving up a lot of the former.

Sorry, I missed the pocket ride.

No worries any support is ALWAYS welcome

With regard to the AMA card: You don't have to put up with that if you don't want to. A client can say (civilly but firmly) to a T, for example: "I've made my decision on this and I don't wish to discuss it every session." And perhaps "I will keep you posted."

Repeat as often as needed.