Found a new therapist

I have 40 mins until my first session and I don't even know where to start. My marriage imploded yesterday. I have depression and a history of self harm. I have bad self esteem most of the time. I think I might have borderline personality disorder as well. Let's hope she can help.

I hope the session goes well adam and that you can start to work on your issues.

Thinking about you ...hope it is going well.

Hi Adam,
I really hope the session went well. It sounds like you have a whole lot going on, and I'm hoping she can help you start to sort it all out and find a path towards feeling better.

I talked to the new therapist. I told her all of my major life problems and she sealed receptive to help. It was strange. I felt numb and disconnected when talking to her about my problems. I think it helps because it allows me to talk, but shouldn't I feel sadness or anxiety when talking about it? Maybe it is just being overhwhelmed by the events of the last couple of days. I like her so far.

I told my wife she was welcome to come. Or talk to someone and I would pay for it. She refused. She has shut down over these problems and I don't think there is any reconciling.

can you see a marriage T?

I'm glad it went well. I think the numbness was just a result of the newness of it all. Keep this therapist for yourself to work on your own issues. Your wife can see her own if she sees fit to, or you can go to a separate marriage T. I hope you two can work it out, but it will take a long time. If you are BPD like me, patience is NOT one of our virtues.

I don't know if I am really BPD. I looked at the DSM criteria and it seemed pretty familar. I internalize a lot of my anger. I think that is how I deal with people. If I didn't do that I would blow up and people would be walking on eggshells around me. I tend to have a large amount of patients and I try to use reasoning and logic to guide my actions more than emotions. I tend to wear a mask a lot about how I am feeling.