Shame / stuff you can't tell your T

Now this I did tell my T a little about. Not much, just the basics. I assumed he would think I was a freak but he didn't, at all. I hope it goes well with your T.

Did you see what I wrote before I deleted the post?

this reminds me of when i went into see a new therapist couple months ago i lied about my dads name and more stuff so i wouldnt be put into hospital and at the end she goes "so what else have you lied to me about" and ugh my heart flipped and stomach skipped. i didnt lie about anything else except my dads name and something else that was little. so 2 things. i wanna go back but i think she feels im a liar now and thats a really bad thing to portay on only the 4th visit.

Oh, that must have sounded very harsh to you. Maybe she didn't mean it that way (can't tell as I wasn't there and don't know how she sounded, whereas you were obviously there) but I imagine it must have sounded very insensitive. The thing is, even if you tell "the truth" in therapy, your truth may change. Things I thought were the truth two months ago don't feel like the truth now.

I would suggest you talk to this T and tell her you felt criticised or attacked or however it is you felt, and explain it has made you worry about talking to her. If she's worth sticking with, she'll understand and talk to you about it.

I found a way to tell my T that there is something I can't tell him. I wrote a story about a rabbit being chased by foxes. Rabbits always represent childhood when I write stuff to bring to T, so I think he'll get it. I'm nervous about giving it to him but I need to get this out my head and bringing things to T can help in that respect.