[Bloem]

My little one made a drawing for T last week. T was very pleased with the drawing and sayd she will keep it save with her, because the colors make her happy. My little one was very happy and proud that T liked her drawing.

At first I did not think much about it, but now I feel uncomfortable and feel that I have to take distance from T. Her response was so real and sweet that it scared me I think.

I dont understand it myself.... I only know that i want to be far away from T.:confused

[Syra]

Originally Posted by Bloem

My little one made a drawing for T last week. T was very pleased with the drawing and sayd she will keep it save with her, because the colors make her happy. My little one was very happy and proud that T liked her drawing.

At first I did not think much about it, but now I feel uncomfortable and feel that I have to take distance from T. Her response was so real and sweet that it scared me I think.

I dont understand it myself.... I only know that i want to be far away from T.:confused

That does sound very confusing. You have a lovely connection with your T, and then later you get really uncomfortable and want to distance yourself because you are scared. Is that it? Is there more? I wonder if there is more about the "scared" part?

[Bloem]

[QUOTE=Syra;3036333]
That does sound very confusing. You have a lovely connection with your T, and then later you get really uncomfortable and want to distance yourself because you are scared. Is that it? Is there more? I wonder if there is more about the "scared" part?

Thanks for your comment. it made me think about why I feel this and what there is about being scared. There is much more about the "scared" part than I thought.
I find it hard to accept sometimes that i have parts. I want to look away from them so that they will disappear. I know it does not work that way they have always been there. I always had my own way of dealing with them I only did not know then that they were parts. It were problems i had to deal with, no more or less. Now it's totally different and that scares me.
I have a good relationship with my T i've known her for a long time. She accepts the parts better than i do. According to her, I can learn from her to accept the 'others' and so have more compassion for myself.
Her reaction to the drawing was very sweet. I saw it as a response to the little one and not to me. But the little one is a part of me and I do not want a sweet or caring response from her. I want her to see me as a grown-up woman, as a whole person.

it feels confusing

Ps:sorry for my english is not my native language

Liefs Bloem

[learning1]

It's interesting. I don't know if I understand or not. Do you feel embarrassed that you have a part that acts like a child? But your therapist thinks you can learn from the child part?

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by Bloem

I want her to see me as a grown-up woman, as a whole person.

((Bloem))

I understand.

But part of therapy is learning to accepting that we are not as whole nor as grown up as we like to think.

We grow when accept that we are not yet grown.
We become whole when we accept that we have parts.

[Bloem]

Originally Posted by learning1

It's interesting. I don't know if I understand or not. Do you feel embarrassed that you have a part that acts like a child? But your therapist thinks you can learn from the child part?

Thank you for your comment.
Yes, I feel ashamed for the child part while my T sees it as something I can learn from, like to take care of and in that way learning to cope better with myself.
And also to understand my own desire and emotions better.

Liefs,
Bloem

[Bloem]

Originally Posted by CantExplain

We grow when accept that we are not yet grown.
We become whole when we accept that we have parts.

I will remember this....

Thank you for the hugs and reaction.

Liefs,
Bloem