Burning bridges

Maybe smashing glass just isn't for you.....and that is OK.
(i had a friend who used to toss empty cans in the air and smack them with a stick...
when i was young, i remember stick ball as feeling very good...especially on a summer night

So/ how are you doing?

Thanks for asking, winter. I'm actually doing a lot better. My new T seems much more competent, and I actually leave feeling better more often than not, which is such a stark contrast with exT.

I still find myself going through bouts of rage in my head, but they're softened a bit. Or maybe just more balanced with grief. I had a lovely weekend with my family, for the first time in a long time.

I agree with you hank. It was one of your earlier posts on another thread that helped me to better separate out what my T was doing from what I was doing and why it was making me feel so crazy.

New T talked about exT responding to me in ways that derived from her own woundednes, and her own non-adaptive coping strategies. Something about that really helped it to click for me that I wasn't at fault. As new T said, maybe there were some things I did that I wasn't particularly proud of, but as the professional, it was her responsibility to be the bigger person, so to speak, and not let her own stuff get in the way.

That is good to hear about the better parts.