[tinyrabbit]

My T hugged me today for the second time ever, at my request, and something weird and unexpected happened. I realised I'd curled my left hand into a fist and put it between us.

Now that I did not expect. I've spent all week thinking that I really need a hug, and then I find myself making a fist at him!

So I got out of the hug to discuss the fist and then I was really upset, and my T said: "Are you thinking: I want my hug back?" Which I was! But I was also thinking, what on earth is my unconscious playing at?

[unaluna]

The first year I was seeing my t (before a 3 year break) I SOOO wanted to kiss him. I did, once, and I was shocked and surprised at how angry I felt! I was like, so THAT'S the Italian kiss of death!

[kaliope]

i am so sorry that your need for a hug was ruined by your anger. that must have been very sad. i am glad it was with t so that you were safe at least.

Tiny....its hard letting someone in your fortress even if you invite them.

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by tinyrabbit

My T hugged me today for the second time ever, at my request, and something weird and unexpected happened. I realised I'd curled my left hand into a fist and put it between us.

Now that I did not expect. I've spent all week thinking that I really need a hug, and then I find myself making a fist at him!

So I got out of the hug to discuss the fist and then I was really upset, and my T said: "Are you thinking: I want my hug back?" Which I was! But I was also thinking, what on earth is my unconscious playing at?

I sometimes do this with my dad not because I'm angry but because this is embarrassing but I'm just not comfortable with my boobs touching him at all and it creates enough space so that they hang down instead of pointing out. So it could just be a sort of personal space divide you know you want to be close but not that close.

[likelife]

Sometimes we need a little protection during intimate moments.

[tinyrabbit]

Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

I sometimes do this with my dad not because I'm angry but because this is embarrassing but I'm just not comfortable with my boobs touching him at all and it creates enough space so that they hang down instead of pointing out. So it could just be a sort of personal space divide you know you want to be close but not that close.

I know what you mean as this was actually something I worried about when I imagined hugging my T, but I was sitting on the floor and my fist was against my stomach.

It didn't ruin it, in the end, because my T asked if I wanted my hug back after effectively robbing myself of it, and I said yes, and he hugged me again, no fist this time, but it was just so weird as I didn't realise I'd done it or feel myself doing it until I looked down and saw it.

Thanks for the replies and hugs everyone

[tinyrabbit]

Originally Posted by hankster

The first year I was seeing my t (before a 3 year break) I SOOO wanted to kiss him. I did, once, and I was shocked and surprised at how angry I felt! I was like, so THAT'S the Italian kiss of death!

I have to ask: where did you kiss him? On the cheek or the lips or what?!

[unaluna]

Originally Posted by tinyrabbit

I have to ask: where did you kiss him? On the cheek or the lips or what?!

NOW that it's been like ten years, we hug and kiss all the time, like brother and sister. But that time - it was on the lips, close-mouthed, and I swear I saw Fredo. (Not Frodo!)