Ever Walked/Ran Out on T?

Never occurred to me why I would want to be chased after. I guess it is a form of attention seeking, which I have a problem with.

I've never really ran or walked out, as others have said i've wanted to so much but seem rooted to the chair.
I'm positive my T wouldn't stop me if i walked out.
Once with ExT i said " i think i need to leave now, i want to go home" i was in a really weird spacey and crying mood. She just said " are you having a bad day?" and i nodded. Then she said " it would be such a shame for you to leave when you just got here, i'm glad you came."

It was enough to make me stay.

I don't think wanting attention in and of itself is a bad thing. And wanting to be chased after could also be wanting reassurance - again, not a bad thing for someone to want. I would think an idea might be how to get those things more directly eventually.

I have not walked out on this one I see now, but I have done it before when it was pointless to stay (correcting my earlier response). It did not seem like a big deal. I did not want to be there any longer, the therapist was getting paid either way, it did not seem useful to stay, so I left. Leaving was good for me and the therapist chasing me down would have really set me off.

I did not too long ago because I was so effin angry and upset so I ran out. I was on the verge of having a panic attack so T followed me and said if I left she would call the cops. That was NOT the right thing to say to me and really ticked me off. Let me tell you, she will not be pulling that one on me again.
Now when I come in and sit down without taking my backpack off and putting my stuff down she goes 'are you going to put your stuff down and stay a while?' I asked her last week why she says that a lot and she said because I always look like I'm ready to run off. I told her yeah that's how I feel sometimes!
I have run out on other Ts too...none of the others followed me though.

I had a T schedule 90 min sessions, because he felt we weren't accomplishing enough. On the first one, at the 55 min mark I said "sorry, I'll pay you a double copay, but I can't stay" and left. It was too much focus on me and I couldn't handle it.

nope. too much of a coward to do so

I haven't walked out of a session, but I have stormed off to the other side of the room before now.

Perhaps off-topic as I was leaving on time, but I did once storm out and slam the front door of the therapy centre - it's really quite a small place and the walls kind of shook when I did it.

Went back the next week expecting to be told off - at best, I expected my T to say he understood why I did it, but it wasn't acceptable. But he wasn't cross at all, and just said it probably gave the people in the other rooms something to talk about.

That seems pointless to me, unless you were going to kill yourself. If my T had told me that, I would have said Im not going to kill myself but continued to walk out. Its not like the cops can arrest you for walking out of therapy, if you paid. So I would have been right there with you, I would have probably gotten very angry and felt very trapped.

Yes that's exactly how I felt. I told her you had better not ever threaten me with that again!

Thank you, sd. I agree completely.

I also think there is a huge difference between running away from a conversation with a friend, and running away from a T session. Two differences, actually. First, a T is not a friend, and they are (or should be) equipped to handle lots of things that are unacceptable in normal social intercourse. Second, a T session is usually much more difficult than a conversation with a friend, so it's much easier to get completely overwhelmed.

As I mentioned, I have never left a session early but I have found that telling T when I get the urge to run off has been helpful, sometimes.

Not to stray too much from the direct question..
Fight or flight can be activated. It can appear like attention seeking and sometimes it certainly is. Other times it's not even something to think about as in I think I should leave now. You are in the parking lot before you stop to really realize you left. For me it was embarrassing as I am a shy introvert and do not want that type of attention bolting through a building and group of people brought.

Growing to a point to be able to talk about those feelings is very useful, recognizing triggers and ways to deal better with them helped me too.

I wanted to run once from a therapy session a long time ago, when a previous therapist said something very rude to me. I was shocked and pictured myself just getting my purse and saying, "I'm going to go now.", but I didn't. I wish I had now, in retrospect.

I did run from a pdoc appointment though. She had a student working with her and the previous time she'd had a student, she'd asked me (in front of the student) if the student could sit in on our appointment. I told her no (and felt terrible about it).

When I saw a student was there again and the secretary momentarily stepped out of the room, I bolted. It's hard enough going to appointments, I don't need the stress of a student listening and discussing me afterwards......and the embarrassment of telling the student I don't want them to sit in. GEESH!

Only once so far have I really wanted to run out of a session. It was when we were discussing issues about my mother and T made me look in the mirror. I felt like a petulant child wanting to throw a temper tantrum. The two options running through my head were to bolt out the door, right next to the mirror, or plop on the couch, cross my arms and say "I'm not doing it and you can't make me".

LOL Me being the submissive, introvert, not wanting to dissappoint anyone or have anyone mad at me didn't do either of those things but did what T said. The next session we talked about my feelings and my thoughts, and T still reminds me of how much that session really affected me.