[wotchermuggle]

Have you? Did it help or make the situation worse?

[content30]

No...I did not...even when I was suicidal. That is the reason that I went. Going to therapy is what helped me. My therapist understood my depression and talked me through it. Even when I was extremely low, it was good to talk to an objective person who understood depression, since my family and friends did not understand it. It was the only decent hour or hours of the week when I had depression.

[LadyShadow]

I have, and it didn't help. It just made me feel more guilty for not going. I think when you're really depressed you should make every effort to force yourself to go, because you will just end up thinking about it and thinking about it, and it will make you feel worse.

[stopdog]

I have. It had no discernible effect one way or the other in my case.

I actually did. My therapist was a little intrusive at times so I just did not want to go. I told her that I could not make it and I was not very forthcoming with her. But this was another therapist.

[ECHOES]

Yes I have, and I told her at the next session. She reassured me that she wanted to see me no matter how I was feeling, that she wanted to see "all" of me. I felt like I had to keep that unlikable, intolerable part of me away from her.

Originally Posted by ECHOES

Yes I have, and I told her at the next session. She reassured me that she wanted to see me no matter how I was feeling, that she wanted to see "all" of me. I felt like I had to keep that unlikable, intolerable part of me away from her.

why is it that our therapist seem to be so demanding at times? and why do they want to convince us what to believe?

I have a friend who told me that she was telling them that she was doing fine. They insisted that she was not, and she said she knew herself pretty well.

[Raging Quiet]

I cancelled due to my depression esculating; it was due to these cancellations and not opening up that caused our stuckness then rupture.

I think it's a symptom of depression to push people away and not having the energy, but I have learned that its really important to let your T know how you are feeling (I ended up sending her a letter explaining that I was getting worse etc which started to heal the process and affected my own mood)

[pinkbutterfly]

I have....I actually did more than not go...I completely quit -- but only for a couple week...because I continued to spiral and realized if I didn't go I would probably (quite literally) die.

I have just once with t1, I just didn't turn up, she rang twenty minutes into our session saying she was worried because I didn't show up so I rang her and told her I didn't show up because she wasn't helping me, therapy wasn't working she just said ok and that I still had to pay her. That was enough to let me know that it wouldn't have helped me and I made the right decision then. Now I wouldn't do that to this t, I have wanted to quit and sent her a text but she sent me such a long lovely text back that I couldn't quit. I suppose what I am trying to say is it depends on your therapist if they can help you.

[sunrise]

Originally Posted by wotchermuggle

Have you? Did it help or make the situation worse?

Yes, when I am feeling more depressed, I likely will not want to go to therapy. I like a certain level of engagement in therapy and when I am too depressed, it seems like a chore and "I just can't do it." So there have been a few times I could not go because I felt too depressed, and it did not make the situation worse. However, it did not make the situation better either. When I have gone to therapy when I was feeling depressed and like I did not want to go, it helped very much to go. And this was a surprise, it always is. I think I cannot do it and it will not help, but it ends up making me feel better, and then I am glad I went. I have told my T about this and he was a little surprised I would not want to go when depressed. He wants to help me through the hardest times and I think especially wants to see me when I am not feeling well.

[mandazzle]

I did once, I was too depressed to get out of bed and I didn't call T to tell her I wasn't coming... she really didn't like that. Then I just felt more guilty and more depressed.

No. My depressions are incredibly severe, and fortunately my instinct to survive has always ruled and gotten me to the help I need.

Yes I have. I remember one occasion where I was having major depression and felt like there was no point going. If I think about it now it might have been a mixture of depression and anxiety that kept me from going. I regretted having missed therapy..mostly because I got charged for it :/

[mixedup_emotions]

There have been times when I was so depressed that I didn't want to go. T was pretty adamant that I show up...and I did. Even if it wasn't a useful session, the act of getting there was progress as it didn't allow me to continue to decline in that very moment. I've always followed through on seeing T, because I don't like the idea of having post-cancellation regret.

[GenCat]

Yes, with my first T. I felt like we both were going nowhere and I wasn't getting the help I felt I needed, so I just quit going due to my depression and lack of motivation to get my life where it needed to be. It took me over 2 years to finally reach out to another T. I recommend going to every one, unless of course you are ill.

[ECHOES]

I didn't mention, and I wanted to add, that my therapist has helped me very much when I have arrived at therapy very depressed. I am often amazed at how much better I feel on leaving, compared to when I arrived.

There was a time when it seemed like everything was just too overwhelming, therapy would not help anyway, everything was hopeless, and no one should have to sit there and listen to me wallow in self pity for 50 minutes. I was depressed because I was horrible and disgusting and just deserved to feel that way. However, I knew from watching this documentary that my H recorded and wanted me to watch that children are horribly screwed up by a parent's suicide. I felt like I had done enough damage that I could not do more by screwing up my kids that way. So, I went to therapy and just kept showing up even when initially I just felt worse. It did help after a while. It was the only thing that did because medication never helped me.

The closest I came to avoiding therapy was when I relapsed into a relatively short lived depressive episode. I was embarrassed that I could not control myself better or use the skills he had taught me, or something. I was afraid of 'failing' or ... something. Someone on here actually was hugely helpful at helping me see that it was just part of the process and relapsing was going t happen for a while.

[marcel83]

Yes, one time. On Saturday I had very terrifying dream about my T and my mum . And as a result I overslept to therapy two days later . Sometimes I tell my T I won't come to her next time ( because of my feelings/ emotions) but I always come back when I feel better.

[Mapleton]

No, because I have an obsessive need to get to appointments I set up, no matter how complicated that can make life. It's a little crazy what you can out yourself through, when you feel vulnerable about time, remembering and not failing/being criticized.

[Mapleton]

Originally Posted by marcel83

Yes, one time. On Saturday I had very terrifying dream about my T and my mum . And as a result I overslept to therapy two days later . Sometimes I tell my T I won't come to her next time ( because of my feelings/ emotions) but I always come back when I feel better.

Oh.. Oversleeping for an appointment... That would be a nightmare for me. Dd you feel guilty at all?

[photostotake]

I've always gone to my appts, no matter how hard it may seem. When I was at my worst, he did end up calling the crisis center on me while I was there. At the time, I thought it was really unnecessary, it turned out to be a good wakeup call for me. My sui thoughts have never gone as far as they did that day. Had I not gone into t that day, who knows where I'd be now.

[marcel83]

Originally Posted by Mapleton

Oh.. Oversleeping for an appointment... That would be a nightmare for me. Dd you feel guilty at all?

I was terrified of the dream I had dreamt two days earlier...so I didn't feel guilty. I told her about the dream and that giving up of the session wasn't my intension. I was sad and anxious I won't see her that day.

[wotchermuggle]

Thank you everyone for sharing your experiences.

[Miswimmy1]

i've really thought about skipping a session, just because i felt like it wouldn't help and would only make me anxious and more annoyed than i already was. i have never skipped a session though, because i know that skipping in the long run will not help anything for me.