Couch 58 A place to sit and......

thanks ready ill be thinking of you during your apt I so hope it is good .

oops this was in response to MUE sorry..that is cool. I bet it is nice for the clients also to have someone who can be empathetic to them and just get it

I just hope that xT doesn't say he won't see me anymore unless I make a committment to come back on a regular basis... I'm not sure I can do that financially or otherwise yet..

That's what I want to do when I grow up!! That is so awesome.

I am off to the hosp again I hope they have news. thanks ready and mue for the kind words it means a lot .and also for the hugs people.

Granite I am glad to hear your father is doing better today.

This is the core dilemma of every caring profession.
This is why carers do so much psychotherapy.

My daughter wants to go to university in Florida. My wife says we have to go too.

You keep telling us you are mean but nobody believes you.

Well...I am home. "Bumping" supposably still is not finished, but for now I am at "my" school. The special education guidance counselor called me in this afternoon and told me she couldn't place me in the autistic unit because she needed me in the EBD (Emotional/Behavioral Disabilities) unit this year. It saddens me as I really like the autistic kids, but I understand where she is coming from placing me there. As she put it right after she told me she needed me there was: [1] She needed someone who wouldn't pi s s off the kids. (So, in other words...not M.) And [2] she needed someone who could run if the need arised. (So in other words...not B.) She said of the 3 of us, I was the best fit. Oh well, I was in the EBD unit 2 years ago and enjoyed it...I'm sure I will me fine.

The autistic teacher is POed however because she got M and M did not work in that room last year. She tried to get M moved out by talking to the special needs guidance counselor, but she said it was out of her hands and to talk to the principal. So, the teacher did and the principal said he understood where she was coming from and her concerns, but there was nowhere else to place M. He did tell the teacher to document everything that is a problem (i.e. - M walking out of the room because she "needs a break" every 10 minutes...she did do this last year. Or M telling an autistic kid to "suck it up and grow some balls because they are in middle school now." She also said things like that on several occasions last year.) I feel bad for the teacher.

The EBD teacher I will be helping is not the same one I helped before. The one I helped 2 years ago got a teaching job closer to her elderly mother and moved back down there (a couple hours away). The teacher I am helping now, seems to be a good fit for the EBD kids. Hopefully we will have a good year.

I'm a little disappointed that I will not be in the autistic unit, but EBD would have been my second choice. I just didn't want to "rotate" classes like the other 2 assistants do. They are somewhere different every period every other day. For example...their MWF schedule is the same and their TuTh schedule is the same, but there are in 7 different classes on each schedule. I would hate having to deal with that many teachers. I did that my first year as an assistant and hated it.

Anyways...enough about me.

Granite, I'm glad your dad is doign better. Hopefully the results of the tests will be helpful to the doctors.

Lola, I hope you had a good day at work.

RTS, I hope your session with xT goes well.

To anyone I forgot...hi.

I need to go make some supper and then eat it. I'll try to pop back in later tonight. I hope everyone has a good evening.

TRIGGER WARNING FOR TALK OF SI





Ok.. So, I SI.. I go through spurts where I don't do it for months and times where I do, like now. In general I try to keep the cuts on my upper arms, I have enough short sleeve and long to cover up the marks. Today, I had a short sleeve cardigan on over a short sleeve shirt. I took it off in the middle of our MC session b/c it was really hot in there, and he knows that I SI anyways. So, as I was getting out of my van I put it back on as MIL doesn't not know that I do this. I mean, she has seen old scars, but never fresh ones to let her know that I do it now. Well, I was standing next to MIL outside when we got home and I was holding on to my dog, so my sleeve must have exposed some cuts, b/c MIL pick up my sleeve and looked at my arm. OMG- I want to explode! I am shaking I don't know if I am angry, embarrassed, or on the verge of a panic attack. There was just something so violating about what she did. This after a crappy MC session- I am ragging!

It sounds like M has mastered the art of strategic incompetence: if you don't like task, do it badly and it will be given to someone else.

Healed...I am sorry your MIL violated your personal space/property. That was not right of her to do. You have a right to be mad/upset/whatever you want about it. It's really none of her buisness. Hang in there. Hopefully things will get better.

Thanks RTS...

Us nannies especially us career nannies are so much more money than daycare. But we help out around the houses to. Nothing major, but just tidying up, kids laundry and grocery shopping. Unfortunately right now, there are more nannies than families. But the website was blowing up tonight so I applied to what I could.

Here's to hoping. And now I need a nap. All this work stuff between H and myself. I'm dizzy and tired.

omg thank you all for the support. my farther had a mini stroke but he will recover from that it will just take some time but he is moving forward with that in fact his speech only messed up once when I went back . the doc came in and said they need to do some more scans of his curated arteries because he saw that one was at least 50 % blocked and they couldn't see through the other one do to a build up of calcium .so they need to do some kind of cat scan using die to decide if they need to go in and clean them . that is scary but I don't want this happening again

ready how did it go???

Hiya, first post in this thread. Got my next T apt tomoz and feeling really anxious because last week we only talked crap, nothing helpful at all, literally just about books we'd read. I just feel like nothing is getting any better or changing but I'm scared to say that incase they say well there's no point coming then and stop me going and cut all help :/

Welcome Morgan , maybe T is trying to feel you out and let you bring up tougher subjects?

Granite I am glad to hear your Dad will be ok.

Healed, I am sorry MIL did that... Did she say anything?

Hmm maybe, but I've been seeing her a while and she's said to psychiatrist I'm not getting any better so I'm just worried she's given up on me

Nope.. not a word.

Morgan, maybe you should just ask T what's up with book talk? Can't hurt, huh?

Healed if you wanna talk about it, we are here, or you can PM.

It IS violating. They need to use their words. I know they didn't grow up with that expression, but they know they're doing wrong. But they think they have the right because they want to know and don't know how to ask. My mother thinks she can touch me. It's horrible.

Healed I can't believe your MIL did that. (Well yes I can my ex-mil violated my boundaries all the time) Did you feel like head butting her? I always find a good headbutting fantasy relieves my anxiety. Just a joke, people I am not advocating violence towards another human being, or another living creature.

Granite your dad is in the best place for him. Hope he keeps improving.