?'s for T

Why did you forbid me to SH? I deserve to be hurt...I really do.

Why does it seem like you and Pdoc care more about me than I do?

Why do I feel the need to sabotage these relationships with you and pdoc and just give up on myself?

Maybe we need to review any and all coping skills and have me keep track of when I use them and how they worked for me?

Sorry for being such a downer I'm just struggling to want help right now.

Hi, Melisssad81. I'm sorry you are in so much pain. If I'm understanding you right you have at least one person plus you pdoc that really care for you. That is a good thing. If there are coping skills that work for you, reviewing them with you therapist/pdoc. I'm glad you have someone that helps keep you from SH. I wish I had a solution the would get you out of pain, but all I can offer is a caring though that you feel better soon.

Hey Melissa, you're not being a downer. As a matter of fact, this is the most hopeful post I've read of yours--you are engaging in your own healing, taking part by having questions that reflect your willingness to accept help. Even though your questions are about your own resistance and low self-worth, that is leaps and bounds beyond the resistance and rage you have expressed before. You are focused on yourself and your part in things, and that's awesome.

Those are all great questions, and ones I think many of us here have asked about ourselves and our part in the process. Good for you, and don't forget to bring those questions to your sessions, because they are all key to your healing.

Hi Melissa... I agree with other posters, in an odd way this is a very POSITIVE post because you are asking very important questions

you inspired me to ask some of the same of myself

I'm going to start thinking of more questions to ask my T. I'm hoping they will good conversation starters.

Why didn't you ever give me tips on how to cope?

I think you need to write the answers down so you can read them when your struggling.