[tealBumblebee]

I don't know what this feeling is about, but I miss my T. Like I want her to be here, at least until I go to sleep, just her warm presence. It's not like I want her in a sexual way, but more how a child cuddles a teddy bear so that they can rest peacefully. I'm not anxious or in any kind of bad mood, I just miss her.

I tried skimming past emails for some comforting words, etc. and they're just not doing it this time. In doing so, I realized that she does a good job of not overstepping any kind of boundaries while extending enough for me to know she's there. There's not anything she's ever said or emailed me that I can misconstrue as "she cares about me more than a T role...", so thankfully that's a hurdle I don't have to cross.

But still, I miss her. I just saw her two days ago, so its not like its been forever, and i'll see her again as normal next week.

I have these "i miss you" moments with random people every now and then (usually someone close to me) but its been a few years since the last time, so I don't know why its here, and why I picked her, of all people, to miss. I'm sure i'll get over it, always do, but right now, I really do miss her.

And of course i'm not going to email her about it because ...well thats just creepy. Any ideas? I'm not used to having these kind of feelings, so when I get them, I don't know what to do with them except sit with them. Is this weird?

[growlycat]

I've had the wish that my T would sit next to my bed and read to me until I fell asleep--very parental I suppose.

It makes sense that you would want the presence of someone caring!!

[Aloneandafraid]

This has really made an impact on me. I suddenly realise that what I crave is that parental closeness, especially holding until we go to sleep. Thanks so much for this thread! I don't feel so alone now. Xx

I totally understand.

[jacq10]

(((((Hugs)))))

I completely understand what you are saying. I miss T a lot! And the whole thing before you sleep... definitely do that too!

There is this particular episode of a TV series I watch, and one of the characters reminds me SO much of my T. I have probably watched that episode nearly 100 times, before I fall asleep, to try and achieve just that feeling.

Hugs,
Jacq

[ShrinkPatient]

SIGH

I'm not even sure what to say. If anyone had told me 6 months ago that I'd wish I could be 4 years old again for even a brief time, I'd have told them they needed to see a therapist!!!
It's impossible....
Hugs to everyone!!!

[ShrinkPatient]

At the risk of making everyone jealous, My T gave me a teddy bear over a year ago.
She said that she has used him at a difficult time in her life. Of course there's no way of knowing if that's true but it is a HUGE comfort! I hardly bring him up because I could never admit how much..... Well, he's been through a lot with me.

[ShrinkPatient]

Originally Posted by ShrinkPatient

At the risk of making everyone jealous, My T gave me a teddy bear over a year ago.
She said that she has used him at a difficult time in her life. Of course there's no way of knowing if that's true but it is a HUGE comfort! I hardly bring him up because I could never admit how much..... Well, he's been through a lot with me.

BTW: I'm a 38 yr old mother & wife who sleeps alone!!

[tealBumblebee]

Originally Posted by ShrinkPatient

At the risk of making everyone jealous, My T gave me a teddy bear over a year ago.
She said that she has used him at a difficult time in her life. Of course there's no way of knowing if that's true but it is a HUGE comfort! I hardly bring him up because I could never admit how much..... Well, he's been through a lot with me.

Total jealous moment here, lol. But a happy "good for you!" kind of jealous.

[ShrinkPatient]

Originally Posted by tealBumblebee

Total jealous moment here, lol. But a happy "good for you!" kind of jealous.

Really sorry!!!!
BIG HUG BACK!!!!!!! (Whole hearted)(;

[tealBumblebee]

By the way, the feeling has lessened but its still very much there. I'm trying to deal with it though, because i've not had a (noticable?) problem with transference yet, and don't want to start now...

[deepestwaters40]

Honestly I believe the only way you can move past it is to work through it with her. If you haven't yet, you should try talking to her about it. If she's a good T, she'll be understanding and help you with it.

You're wondering why you miss you're T so much...is it possible you see something in her you wish you has as a kid? or you missed someone close to you as a child a lot? Like your mother? This would probably all be apart of it with her-and again, she should be able to help you work through it

Good luck to you!

[lightcatcher]

Been sitting around feeling odd today and after reading your post it clicked. I miss T too. I don't know what it is that I miss, just miss T.

[tinyrabbit]

I think this is totally normal. You're forming a connection, getting attached and trying to hold onto your T between sessions. I try to remind myself I'm pleased I have my T because he's worth missing, and sort of luxuriate in the feeling of missing him. Don't know if it's healthy, but it helps.

[Aloneandafraid]

Originally Posted by ShrinkPatient

At the risk of making everyone jealous, My T gave me a teddy bear over a year ago.
She said that she has used him at a difficult time in her life. Of course there's no way of knowing if that's true but it is a HUGE comfort! I hardly bring him up because I could never admit how much..... Well, he's been through a lot with me.

Wow this is Awesome! And amazing that she admitted she had a difficult time in her life! I would just LOVE to be given something by my T - anything would do - but a teddy bear - that's just gorgeous - you are so lucky to have your T! mine has only ever given me a note with a list of dates on re changes to appointments which I treasure as it is in her handwriting - how sad is that?!

[tinyrabbit]

Alone - not sad at all. I would love something handwritten from my T.

[ShrinkPatient]

Originally Posted by Aloneandafraid

Wow this is Awesome! And amazing that she admitted she had a difficult time in her life! I would just LOVE to be given something by my T - anything would do - but a teddy bear - that's just gorgeous - you are so lucky to have your T! mine has only ever given me a note with a list of dates on re changes to appointments which I treasure as it is in her handwriting - how sad is that?!

HUGE HUG!!!
I still treasure her had written things. She sent a handwritten Thank You card after a sent flowers when her father was passing away. (Yes, I would have done the same to several ppl I have a professional relationship with)
I treasure the card and all her little scrap notes.
You're so right. I am VERY LUCKY!!!!

I wish EVERYONE could be as lucky. (But not with my T. I'm starting to get jealous for no good reason. Lol )
Thanks for your post. I needed reminding that she truly is so amazing, in spite of the fact I don't make anything very easy on her.

She is a special person.

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I miss my T too I don't see her for another 11 days.

[rainbow8]

I also miss my T a lot. The last session I had was on September 11, and I see her, finally, on Tuesday. I broke my email rule and wrote that I miss her.

[tealBumblebee]

Originally Posted by rainbow8

I also miss my T a lot. The last session I had was on September 11, and I see her, finally, on Tuesday. I broke my email rule and wrote that I miss her.

Its not a rule not to email her for me, but I wish I had the boldness to email her that I miss her.