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I think this is what happened to me and would explain my behaviors with T since he said I am a Borderline with Narcissistic traits.

An excerpt from.

Diagnosis Shock
Boston Women’s Journal June/July 2008

By: Judith Swack

Diagnosis shock is the traumatic reaction people experience the moment they first suspect or are told that they have a serious physical or emotional illness. Sadly, health care providers are not trained to recognize or treat psychological trauma. Left untreated, diagnosis shock can cause a host of emotional and physical problems substantially eroding a person’s health and quality of life. In fact, researchers in the field of health psychology have found that in some people the trauma can be so severe it can lead to mental illness such as depression and anxiety.

What happens in the moment of initial shock?

In the moment of initial shock, people asked themselves consciously or unconsciously, “What could this ___ (news or symptom) possibly mean?” The unconscious mind instantly generated a worst case scenario of loss of function or death so vivid, extreme, and frightening that it triggered a fight-or-flight reaction resulting in a loss trauma. People described this reaction as an intense adrenaline rush of fear, a feeling of frozenness or numbness, and/or a sharp indrawn breath followed by an inability to breathe normally, think clearly, or hear anything that’s said. Exclamations like "I don’t believe it" or "It can’t be true" were common. People instantly developed negative reactions to the setting and the people associated with that memory. These exaggerated, irrational, emotional and physical, i.e. phobic, responses occurred so rapidly that some people were not even consciously aware that they were shocked.
In addition to shock and fear, people felt a whole range of emotions including anger, sadness, hurt, pain, shame, guilt, emptiness, and powerlessness. As in all traumas, people experienced anticipatory phobias, a pervasive underlying feeling of dread that the traumatic event will happen again.
To cope with the traumatic reactions, people commonly used avoidance, distraction, repression, denial, and magical thinking. These strategies did not eliminate the fear from the unconscious mind or body and in fact caused added stress.

Diagnosis shock makes it hard to choose treatment options and can interfere with doctor/patient collaboration.

Many people work well and respectfully with their doctors and health care providers. In cases where people do have a serious illness, patients are often given many treatment options and opinions and asked to choose their own treatment (while traumatized). For certain illnesses, recommended treatment options can be extreme, shocking, and offer no guarantees. Even the doctors may be uncertain of the treatment plan or inform patients that there is nothing they can do. Patients may experience such intense feelings of doubt, confusion, and overwhelm that they develop phobias about having these feelings fearing that if they make the wrong decision it could kill them. This phobic reaction can cause people to balk at any treatment whatsoever for fear of making a mistake. They may second-guess/obsess or overtreat themselves in an attempt to cover all the bases. If the treatment is unsuccessful, the person may blame himself. Overwhelmed patients may even blame their doctors for upsetting them and even stop trusting them.

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Originally Posted by MoxieDoxie

I think this is what happened to me and would explain my behaviors with T since he said I am a Borderline with Narcissistic traits.

You didn't want to believe it?
What did you think it meant?