[MASIMO]

I was scheduled for my weekly session today. He texted me to cancel because he is coming down with something. I was really looking forward to talking with him.
You know how you get psyched to see your T, how do you come down from that.
I just feel sad, like something has been taken away from me, childish...arrrrggghhh.

[haier]

Masimo, I know how you feel. I've had my last two sessions canceled because of "meetings". Last week she offered an earlier appointment and I refused. I was irritated, annoyed and on top of that just mad. Then I was conflicted because the appointment she offered was at a time she's normally not in the office and it made me uncomfortable, why? I don't even know. Now I'm debating on terminating therapy. It is so dumb and I know but I can't help it. I can't bare the thought of being disappointed continually. I even feel like she would rather me quit cause she doesn't want to deal with me. I know.... it feels so bad.

[HealingTimes]

I am so sorry to hear this, Masimo. Not childish at all, but i can imagine very disappointing for you.

[GeorgiaGirl413]

Masimo, I know the feeling exactly. It's so hard to get the "parts" synced up. One says, "be an adult, this is a perfectly good reason to cancel, we all get sick, etc." but the other part is bitterly disappointed and a little childish. Just try to keep the thoughts that you know are true in the forefront and look forward to next time. It will be here before you know it.

[Nerak67]

I'm sorry. I so look forward to my session all week it would be such a disappointment. Hang in there.

[sunrise]

I'm sorry that happened. I would be disappointed too.

[RTerroni]

I know how that feels, hopefully you will be able to save the things that you wanted to talk about for next week's meeting.

[Wren_]

it's hard when that happens

Did you get something rescheduled or do you just have to wait for next week?

[unlockingsanity]

Aww, I would be super disappointed too. Maybe try to think of it from the perspective that at least you aren't going to sick from him and miss an appointment next week!

[Nerak67]

Originally Posted by unlockingsanity

Aww, I would be super disappointed too. Maybe try to think of it from the perspective that at least you aren't going to sick from him and miss an appointment next week!

I always try to remind myself that I am saving money. Only works a little as I really miss it when I don't go.

[MASIMO]

I woke up last night very anxious and worried about my T.
Worried that he was really sick, and feeling like I want to do something
to help him. Dont know if my intuition is telling me something or not.

I emailed him today asking how he was, telling him about last night, and
that I hope he is OK. How I'm on the fringes of his life, so I dont know how he is
like someone in his life would, but I still worry. Said it was a strange place to be.

Does anyone ever feel like they want to help their T? I'd like to make some chicken soup,
just comfort him like he comforts me when I'm sick. I know I cant cross that boundary
but I still feel like I want to know if he is OK. He feels like he is part of my life,
although he only gives me chicken soup for the soul.

[Leah123]

Originally Posted by MASIMO

I woke up last night very anxious and worried about my T.
Worried that he was really sick, and feeling like I want to do something
to help him. Dont know if my intuition is telling me something or not.

I emailed him today asking how he was, telling him about last night, and
that I hope he is OK. How I'm on the fringes of his life, so I dont know how he is
like someone in his life would, but I still worry. Said it was a strange place to be.

Does anyone ever feel like they want to help their T? I'd like to make some chicken soup,
just comfort him like he comforts me when I'm sick. I know I cant cross that boundary
but I still feel like I want to know if he is OK. He feels like he is part of my life,
although he only gives me chicken soup for the soul.

In the past, I had much stronger caretaking urges. Some of it was being an ACOA, having the sense that the world kind of rested on my shoulders, that I was the fixer, haha. I used to roleplay, as a child, that people I loved were sick and I'd take care of them all the time. Thank goodness that's mostly over. But, yes, if my therapist were sick, I would still feel concerned for her, and if there happened to be something helpful I could do, I would.

However, I understand that she has an external support system and is self-reliant, so I would not anticipate she would need anything from me. That's what makes it comfortable- she's part of my support system, but I'm not part of hers, that's where the money comes in, that's how I support her.

Still, when she tells me something unfortunate happened, i.e. was late once due to a car breakdown, I am sympathetic.

I think perhaps you're afraid of losing your therapist, it's sooooo easy for abandonment fears to rise up with them, and that's some of your feeling, which will hopefully ease as things get back to normal.

[Rzay4]

Has he responded? I can completely relate. Even at this current I worry about my T as shr hasn't called me which isn't like her.

[MASIMO]

Yes he responded today, said he has been very sick, but I don't know the nature of the illness. He thanked me for caring and that he would see me next week.

[purplemystery]

I'm sorry, I would be very upset too. I know what you mean about getting psyched all week to go.

My T had to cancel once for a doctor's appointment, and even though it was probably a check-up (I never asked), I was very worried about her health. Glad to hear he thinks he will be back next week.