[hezaa82]

I don't know why but I'm unable to feel emotions when I'm in session recently. During the week things will upset me and I'll feel strong emotions. My T wants me to send her updates throughout the week so I'll send her updates when I'm feeling upset and she can see that I'm very emotional in those emails. But then in our session I don't show any emotion.

I know my upbringing has something to do with it. Both of my parents are very reserved people so they probably taught me that showing emotion is not ok. I think I'm kind of a control freak too and am very resistant to letting go in front of people. But it's a problem because we're trying to start EMDR therapy and she tells me to bring up a painful emotion but I can't feel anything even though I'm trying. I think part of it is stage fright too. I really was hoping to get something out of EMDR but I can't feel anything. I wish I could stop feeling numb.

[Leah123]

Have you considered slowing up a little bit, reducing the intensity so that instead of pressure to perform, you'll feel really comfortable for a while and give those emotions room to emerge naturally, at their own pace? That's something I'm working on this week.

Hezaa, I understand and when you find the solution, let me know!! Until then, just know you're not alone!