[sweepy62]

Yesterday was extremely difficult for me very TRIGGERING have csa history.Anyway I followed the safety plan that my t set for me, she called me yesterday, and crisis called me twice last night, and this morning.

I did not sleep, anxiety was through the roof, felt nauseus, along with every other negative emotion, I did not self harm, had extreme urges.

I have not slept, I was afraid to go to sleep. I had promised t I would not drink but I needed to calm down, so I drank a bottle of wine, which only mellowed me, I guess because I was so anxious. So now I feel guilty about that.

I see t tomorrow, I will talk about the horrendous nightmare flashback and body memory sensation I had last week, and see how that goes.

Well I just needed to say that, and wish all pc peeps a happy and healthy new year.

[MASIMO]

Originally Posted by sweepy62

Yesterday was extremely difficult for me very TRIGGERING have csa history.Anyway I followed the safety plan that my t set for me, she called me yesterday, and crisis called me twice last night, and this morning.

I did not sleep, anxiety was through the roof, felt nauseus, along with every other negative emotion, I did not self harm, had extreme urges.

I have not slept, I was afraid to go to sleep. I had promised t I would not drink but I needed to calm down, so I drank a bottle of wine, which only mellowed me, I guess because I was so anxious. So now I feel guilty about that.

I see t tomorrow, I will talk about the horrendous nightmare flashback and body memory sensation I had last week, and see how that goes.

Well I just needed to say that, and wish all pc peeps a happy and healthy new year.

You did good! I made it through too. Finally saw T that afternoon, he made me promise to contact him New Years Eve and to contact my best friend out of state. He texted me and I responded that I was OK at the time, but it was going to be a long night. Drinking alone, which is a bad thing for me BUT......I called my friend about 11 and we turned on our TV's to same channel, and we drank and talked thorough midnight together. It was great. I emailed T at 1am to say I made it through. He was really worried about me.
And he emailed me the next morning. I really felt safe with his safety plan for me,
He even asked for a HUG at the end of my session. How could I have a bad night after that. Now he's off on vacation again for two weeks, but I think I'm going to be OK.
If I made it through NYE, I can do anything. I'm going to keep in close touch with my friend, it really does help to reach out. We all need each other. Stay safe and drive away though nasty nightmares.

[H3rmit]

Sorry it was so rough for you. It was surprisingly quiet this year in my neighbourhood, and I had a very pleasant eve and new year's day this time.

[Syra]

What a good job you did