[franki_j]

I was nervous to talk to her but I did. I told her I was really upset and that it made me feel like she didn't care. I said that I don't understand how she can concentrate on what I'm saying if she's driving and also that if one of my friends was a half hour late for lunch or something along those lines I would be irritated.
Well, she apologized. She said that she did not want to give off the impression that she didn't care b/c that's not true. I also bought up that I don't know if that is the case b/c it's free treatment, and she said that she tries very hard to make time b/c it is free treatment since she has worked in places where the treatment is free and patients have to wait an hour to be seen. She also said that she has a very limited schedule and that she was trying to finish up some work before talking to me because she felt she would have been more distracted if she still had work to do.
I also bought up the fact that it made me miss my old T a lot b/c my old T was very very punctual. She knows I miss old T and have bought it up with her (also I see old T from time to time as she works in the same building and I always tell my new T when I see her b/c it always throws me off.) She said that she knows I miss old T and then she asked me if I would like another therapist, like if I feel this isn't working out there is someone else in the study that I could work with. I told her that I did like her and that I would miss my old T with any therapist.
I was surprised that she asked me if I wanted to switch Ts because I do like her and I do think DBT is helping. I guess she felt like that b/c I had bought up missing old T, but that doesn't mean I don't like her. She also told me I was doing better and asked what my goals were since we are half-way through treatment, and I said something to the effect that I am doing better now but we'll see what happens in the future. After I said this she asked me if I was thinking about dropping out of the study, which is not what I meant at all. It surprised me that she would think that either I wanted to switch Ts or drop out of the study b/c I had been upset with her.
But we actually ended up having a very productive session. I do like her, but my relationship with her is very different from my old T.

[Asiablue]

You were really brave to bring it up. How do you feel now about it all?

[franki_j]

I feel really good. I am glad I bought it up with her. Like I said, it was a very productive session after that. It was also the first time I had seen her in 3 weeks, so I think the fact that I wasn't able to talk to her about what had been bothering me was a factor in me feeling upset with her.
I was surprised that she thought I wanted to switch Ts. I feel kind of bad (well, not bad exactly), but I don't want her to think I don't like her, b/c I do.

[unlockingsanity]

I'm proud of you for being honest and that she was understanding.

[Raging Quiet]

You did a brave thing

I hope your next session feels better.