Not much more to say really.

I am too stressed and too depressed to go on, but I don't have the courage to end it. I want to die in my sleep, and I think that would be a good outcome. I want T to understand this and to be supportive.

[Canyon]

I.T, Sorry you are feeling so hopeless.

Can you talk to your T about how you are feeling? Obviously your T wouldn't/ couldn't support you in dying. T would almost certainly understand though. I think anyone who has ever suffered through pain and stress can understand how it can sometimes get to the point that you would not want to continue on in such pain.

Hoping you can get the support that you need.

[veronicamarie]

I feel the exact same way if I could die in my sleep it would be the best but these are just fantasies because we will never do it and we all know no one would be supportive about this but eventually your depression would fade but in the mean time you need non judgmental friends or family who you can express yourself too im trying I know that's what I need but no one understands me and always put me down which makes me feel worse but your not alone !!

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[Petra5ed]

I'm sorry you feel like that, I've been there and it is hell on earth to be that depressed. If you haven't tried a psychiatrist yet I would recommend a try. I've been in a place where I was thinking those same thoughts everyday, and I also knew I wouldn't actually go through with it, but still wanting to die daily is about as miserable as one can be. Finally I saw an actual psychiatrist, and eventually that helped my depression, and they have meds that will take your stress and anxiety away immediately.

Anyways, I'm sure the last thing your T wants if for you to die! Sorry to say but I would doubt that a good T could support you in wanting to die, they should be able to understand you though and be supportive in terms of helping you get out depression.

[learning1]

I understand too. I have been wondering if I had cancer if it would be a relief to know I wouldn't have to go on for as much longer as an average lifespan. I'm sure it would be scary as well but it might be a relief. There are so many people who are dying who don't want to die, and I'm living a way that's hardly worth it, but I haven't decided I have the courage to give someone else the resources that keep me going.

I don't feel I could tell my therapist about this because obviously their job and legal obligation is to keep clients alive. It would be self defeating to tell her if I really want to do it, and what's the point of talking about it if I don't mean it. Sometimes it feels odd that in therapy we're supposed to be so open about everything else but we know in therapy we can't genuinely discuss the possibility that dying would be the best option. I think one can talk about it if one isn't too close to the decision, but honestly discussing the decisions leading up to it or anything if you feel it's immediate seems self defeating. I don't know, I hope you can find a way of getting some comfort in therapy for this somehow.

[Arha]

I have felt the same way. I had to get through it before I recognised that I was not seeing things the way they were. At the time I really resented people wanting me to keep on living through hell, because I could not see that it could and would change.
Can you see that things might change? Or is that too hard for you to visualise?

Please accept the support that your T can give, which might be understanding the depths of your despair, and acknowledging that you feel no hope, while offering to help you reach for a better way of seeing things.

[RTerroni]

WOW this is deep, still I wouldn't get into it too much with your Therapist or she may think you are unstable

i have told her before that i was suicidal and we discussed it.

[brillskep]

Well, there are countless reasons why she shouldn't and probably would never support a suicide decision and acting out on that decision. I wonder though, how would you feel if someone validated your feelings of no longer wanting to live the life you're currently living and of being in so much pain that sometimes this feels like the only way out? I think a good therapist could be supportive around the pain and perceived inability to cope with it in any other way. But no therapist can support a decision to kill yourself. It is unethical and, in my opinion, not actually supportive at all. In my opinion, someone supportive might validate your suicidal feelings and ideas as really being your experience, and then go on to assist you in finding better coping options.

[Nightlight]

I've often felt like that as well. Sometimes I've thought that if it was socially acceptable in our society and I'd gone for help with ending instead of holding on, if I was talked through coming to terms with ending instead of living, then I would be long gone. Even though I'd never wish for suicide to actually be socially acceptable and I'd never want anyone else in my position to take their life, sometimes I still wish for that anyway, just so I could be gone already.

I'm so sorry you're struggling so much. I hate to see anyone else struggling like I often do.

[Big Mama]

I am so sorry you feel this way. I would miss you, your twisted since of humor. You always make me smile. I have told you before it is due to you and Sandworm that I decided to get the help I have and made the choices I did. You helped me save my own life, you helped me have the courage to take my life back. You gave me courage when I had none, you were a friend when I had no friend. You didn't run away and avoid me. I think you for that and owe you more then you know. I smile every time I see your name in chat. I would miss talking to you about pigs and snakes. You are such a good guy. I hate to see you this down. I hope you get the help you need and start feeling better soon. I miss the old happy IT. Hang in there buddy.