hardest session ever

lol ok got it and I must agree

I generally disagree that Ts are wily!

I will write more later when i get home...so proud, granite

Granite, I still think her inconsistency, lack of skill in responding when you finally told her about the abuse, FORGETTING that you had met the week before, AND her unwillingness to allow you to write are all still huge issues. [and of course that's only my opinion.] I am glad things are better, but maybe it might be helpful to go ahead and meet with the other therapists anyway. You might have this instant connection with one of them the way I did with my T.

Lol i agree with you! Sometimes i think my t is more afraid of me than i am of him. Like a spider! I think wily here just means, hard to know what the other person is thinking. On both sides. I like to THINK im not that suspicious of my t, but transference can be stronger than my intellect.

thanks mkac trust me I am not forgetting this at all. unfortunately it didn't even at the time cross my mind that I could still meet with them still .I just called them back and said that I had a T I was going to try and work with .they both said that I could call them back if I needed.

Thanks for this! I didn't know that And my T often complains that i see only black and white or good/wrong...Once he asked me to stop using word "wrong" and during the same session I caught myself saying that at least 5 more times

It is such a hard habit to stop. I still can't recognize it in myself most of the time.

Of course she is both those people. But I understand your confusion and frustration. Ts of that type (which includes my Madame T) never disclose enough to let you feel you really know them.

I need blacks and whites. Without them, I can make no sense of the world. No greys for me, please.

PS:

"Wily" is the Aspergic word for "grey".

PPS:

There used to be a phrase "manly and straight forward". Obviously no one would dare to use that now! (It dates from the days when people used brute force to make things black and white, generally at other people's expense.) But is describes Mr T and emphatically does not describe Madame T.