Has anyone else ever come to a point or gotten those paranoid feelings...(I'm guessing that is what you would call them)...where you feel like you have shared too much with your T, over-shared with them, and now you are micro-analyzing everything you did and said and what they must think of you over the last session or last few sessions and have just finally succumbed to the conclusion that T must hate you and doesn't want to see you anymore.....????

[RTerroni]

I do sometimes

Yes I've felt like that. I've wanted to kick myself for sharing to much. I think it's a sign that my T doesn't want to see me again when he tells me that he refuses to discuss a certain subject with me. What???

[HazelGirl]

Yes. More than I would like to admit.

Originally Posted by RTerroni

I do sometimes

I feel this way right now. For some reason, after leaving this evening's session and now over thinking my last few sessions I feel like my T is tired of me....when, logically, there is nothing that has happened for this to be a legitimate concern. I feel insignificant, inferior....like I'm a bore, and exhausting, and that my T dreads our sessions, and seeing me. I think this is from recent events in my life though and having had other people take things I have confided in them and using it as a weapon against me by throwing it back in my face and I guess I'm feeling like T is going to do the same thing now that I trust her enough and confided so much.

I'm sorry....this all sounds so stupid.

Originally Posted by Winterski

Yes I've felt like that. I've wanted to kick myself for sharing to much. I think it's a sign that my T doesn't want to see me again when he tells me that he refuses to discuss a certain subject with me. What???

There is no "what???" coming from me...because I would feel the exact same way you do..and I have when T put up her first boundary with me. I was in complete shame and felt inadequate..like I couldn't do anything right.

[willowbrook]

You've just given an almost exact description of me. I can very much relate to what you wrote. It doesn't matter how consistent my Pdoc is with me, how much reassurance he gives, or how much I trust him, before every session or before every email I send, I keep imagining him sitting there going 'Oh god not HER again'

Originally Posted by willowbrook

I keep imagining him sitting there going 'Oh god not HER again'

This. So much this. Every time T buzzes me in a minute late I imagine that he is sitting in there steeling himself and wanting to delay it as much as possible. After all, that's how I would react if I had to meet with me.

Originally Posted by kneehole

I feel this way right now. For some reason, after leaving this evening's session and now over thinking my last few sessions I feel like my T is tired of me....when, logically, there is nothing that has happened for this to be a legitimate concern. I feel insignificant, inferior....like I'm a bore, and exhausting, and that my T dreads our sessions, and seeing me. I think this is from recent events in my life though and having had other people take things I have confided in them and using it as a weapon against me by throwing it back in my face and I guess I'm feeling like T is going to do the same thing now that I trust her enough and confided so much.

I'm sorry....this all sounds so stupid.

I'm sure you are wrong about what your T is thinking, but that doesn't mean that your thoughts are stupid. I don't think it sounds stupid at all. This comes from somewhere, just like you say, and it could be a valuable thing to discuss with your T.

Remember how happy your T sounded when you asked for a double session? Doesn't sound like she is dreading seeing you at all.

[A Red Panda]

Pretty much every week...