[Asiablue]

I am freaking out a little bit.

I have a public blog where i write about my art therapy sessions. I started it because before i started art therapy i could find nothing about what one was like from the perspective of a client and thought it might help others thinking about going down that route. Also it's a good outlet for me and a way of processing my sessions. But i never told my therapist i have this blog because i worried that if she looked for it or asked to read it that i would filter what i wrote and about my feelings and i didn't want that, i wanted my blog to be real and raw. I have changed all identifying information, names,places, etc. Everything like that is protected. But i do show my art work from sessions and talk about what happened in each session.

I've always felt a bit guilty and wondered bout whether i should tell my therapist, would she be uncomfortable with it? But now it's been so long i'm a little scared to tell. And also i asked for opinions about this and had one quite nasty reply and one nice reply from a therapist who did wonder if it was her client if she'd feel it would change the dynamic in therapy if she knew it was getting written about? So now i'm really worried, i don't want me and T's dynamic to change, i don't want her to think i'm dishonest. I'm scared to tell her but i think i might have to now or just close the blog down.

What do you guys think?

[nicoleflynn]

I think you should do whatever is comfortable for you. You don't have to share everything with your t. You can write/talk about anything you do or say in therapy. It is YOUR therapy. It isn't dishonest...you have a right to your own privacy.

[UnderRugSwept]

Hi Asiablue,

I think it's your therapy and if you want to blog about it, why not? It sounds like a great idea to me. Also from what you have posted in the past, it sounds like you have a great relationship with your T. If you gave your T the same info you presented here: "I started it because before i started art therapy i could find nothing about what one was like from the perspective of a client and thought it might help others thinking about going down that route. Also it's a good outlet for me and a way of processing my sessions. But i never told my therapist i have this blog because i worried that if she looked for it or asked to read it that i would filter what i wrote and about my feelings and i didn't want that, i wanted my blog to be real and raw." then I think it should totally make sense to her. She would probably like to know what you have learned so far. Do you think she might ask you to share some of it with her? Just wondering if you are ready to deal with that should it arise. I don't think you were being dishonest at all tho, and you were careful to keep it anonymous. I am so sorry you had a negative response to this from another therapist.

[TheWell]

I blog too. I haven't told my therapist but I don't think he would care.

Http://www.livinginthewell.wordpress.com

[Asiablue]

Originally Posted by TheWell

I blog too. I haven't told my therapist but I don't think he would care.

Http://www.livinginthewell.wordpress.com

i added you

[Asiablue]

Originally Posted by Elsewhere

Hi Asiablue,

I think it's your therapy and if you want to blog about it, why not? It sounds like a great idea to me. Also from what you have posted in the past, it sounds like you have a great relationship with your T. If you gave your T the same info you presented here: "I started it because before i started art therapy i could find nothing about what one was like from the perspective of a client and thought it might help others thinking about going down that route. Also it's a good outlet for me and a way of processing my sessions. But i never told my therapist i have this blog because i worried that if she looked for it or asked to read it that i would filter what i wrote and about my feelings and i didn't want that, i wanted my blog to be real and raw." then I think it should totally make sense to her. She would probably like to know what you have learned so far. Do you think she might ask you to share some of it with her? Just wondering if you are ready to deal with that should it arise. I don't think you were being dishonest at all tho, and you were careful to keep it anonymous. I am so sorry you had a negative response to this from another therapist.

i see her today, i think i might have to talk to her about this. I feel really nervous.

[blur]

Asia, I really like your blog and I do think it is great for other clients/potential clients to read. It's hard to find blogs like that. I think your T would probably be fine with it since it is anonymous and it's about your therapy journey. If I were in your shoes I wouldn't feel comfortable sharing it with the T as I would definitely censor myself. Maybe you can tell her about it and just continue on with it as is if she doesn't mind it being out there. You could also take it private but allow others to access it with a password that you approve. Your T sounds very understanding so I do think she'll be fine with it but I understand wanting to tell her about it.

[Asiablue]

It's all irrelevant now, i never spoke to her about it because i had a f.cking terrible session. Looks like i'm giving up on therapy and closing my blog down.

[PeeJay]

Originally Posted by Asiablue

It's all irrelevant now, i never spoke to her about it because i had a f.cking terrible session. Looks like i'm giving up on therapy and closing my blog down.

Oh no.

What happened?

[Yearning0723]

Originally Posted by Asiablue

It's all irrelevant now, i never spoke to her about it because i had a f.cking terrible session. Looks like i'm giving up on therapy and closing my blog down.

I'm sorry, Asia. Do you want to talk about it?

[Asiablue]

I can't even talk about it right now. But had an awful awful session and tbh i think i'm giving up on therapy and going to try going it alone.

Just trying to work out my feelings before i make a definitive decisions. But i think i'm done. Haven't stopped crying since i got out.

[Yearning0723]

Originally Posted by Asiablue

I can't even talk about it right now. But had an awful awful session and tbh i think i'm giving up on therapy and going to try going it alone.

Just trying to work out my feelings before i make a definitive decisions. But i think i'm done. Haven't stopped crying since i got out.

I'm sorry you're feeling so upset, Asia.

[HazelGirl]

Originally Posted by Asiablue

I can't even talk about it right now. But had an awful awful session and tbh i think i'm giving up on therapy and going to try going it alone.

Just trying to work out my feelings before i make a definitive decisions. But i think i'm done. Haven't stopped crying since i got out.

One bad session doesn't mean it's all a waste of time. I'm sorry it was so terrible. Do you want to try to see if talking about it on here will help?

[PeeJay]

Originally Posted by Asiablue

I can't even talk about it right now. But had an awful awful session and tbh i think i'm giving up on therapy and going to try going it alone.

Just trying to work out my feelings before i make a definitive decisions. But i think i'm done. Haven't stopped crying since i got out.

I'm so, so, sorry.

[HealingTimes]

I am so so sorry, Asia. Please have a good long think and don't make any hasty decisions about therapy.
Sending you hugs.

Originally Posted by Asiablue

I can't even talk about it right now. But had an awful awful session and tbh i think i'm giving up on therapy and going to try going it alone.

Just trying to work out my feelings before i make a definitive decisions. But i think i'm done. Haven't stopped crying since i got out.

Are you ok Asia? Would you like to talk about it?

[Wandering Pony]

I'm so sorry. Sending hugs

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[Raging Quiet]

Are you okay Asia? i'm sorry to hear about your session.

I keep a therapy blog to online, I've never told t; I've changed details also.

[blur]

i'm so sorry you had such a terrible session. we're here if you want to share but if not that is okay too.

[UnderRugSwept]

Hugs to you...certainly don't feel like you need to rush into any making any decisions before you need to. The best T I have ever had and I had some really, really bad sessions that were so, so painful...at the time I could barely stick it out, but I am so glad now that I did. Anyway, take as much time as you need and we are here for you!

[Bentay]

So sorry to hear that Asia. Ive had rubbish sessions in my time that made me feel why am I doing this to myself. Please don't give up