Leaving T...need pocket riders

well last Friday evening was my last appointment with my current T for at least 30 days. I'm not sure how I feel I am going into an eating disorder treatment program for a minimum of 30 days,no phone or internet access,no family or friends and definitely no current t. (eventually they can visit but I have to get to a certain level of care 1st)

Scares me as I try not to get too attached to anybody,but this overwhelming feeling of sadness is hitting me,that I'm leaving everything behind. That the world is going to go on without me,that they'll all forget me(maybe that's not logical)but it's how I feel. It could be 30 days,could be more(depends how well I do) Also a part of me is angry about the people in my life forcing my hand at this,as if my control is gone and I'm terrified,doing this all alone.

I guess I just need some support,because after Friday I'll be gone for awhile. Any kind words or thoughts? Anything anyone can recommend or if someone has gone through something similar.

Crying the entire time while packing my things

Im in wish you the best, please let us know when you get back

You're really brave to be doing this, even if it is others who convinced you. I know it's hard (I haven't been through it myself, but I can imagine!). Try thinking about how you're doing this for yourself, so that you can eventually be healthy and feel good. I'm sorry you're supposed to do this without your regular support network, that would be the hardest for me if I were you and I really feel for you on that one. I'm sure you won't be alone though... there's bound to be some health care personnel, won't there? Do you know if this will include group therapy or a support group? If it does, you will have peer support too, coming from people going through the same types of things. I wish you best of luck with your treatment.

Thank you. I am trying to get to that point where,I'm okay with it and I know my ed voice is still telling me I'm making a mistake,but my healthy voice that wants to get better is pushing me into that door(if that makes sense).

My regular support network has given me no other options until I do go in and until I'm settled,it is very hard. I can make phone calls and I will have a team of people treating me (pdoc,T and nutritionist) Also will have a nursing aid,support group and things like art t and movement t. I guess because it's so hard for me to make new friends,I imagine I'm afraid that I might enjoy it (not sure how I would).

I just want to go there get the tools and go home (almost like a business deal)feeling myself slowly disassociating from the entire process but thanks again!

I will and thank you

That makes perfect sense. Sounds like this program is meant to help your healthy voice get stronger and louder. I wish you the best!

Best of luck to you. I know how scary and hard it is to go into e.d. Treatment. But you can do this....its going to be ok.

Best of Luck I am sure it will be hard but it can totally change your life. A friend of mine went through this type of program...It was very difficult but in the end it was amazing for her. She is a totally different person and has so much self confidence.

Good luck Ready, I admire your courage to do this. I would be glad to raid your pocket

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We're all here for you.

Your being very brave ready2makenice - I wish you the very best & I'll defo jump into your pocket. Keep us posted.

Thank you everyone so much for all the support so far!!!

I am so nervous and afraid and wondering what am I getting myself into...I'm terrified and so ready to runaway from all of this

but thank you everyone again!! Keep them coming please,I need it really badly,I'm struggling so much right now!!

I am in your pocket for as long as you need me. You are being very brave, and this is a big step. When it gets too hard to take it a day at a time, take it an hour at a time, and when that gets to be too much, just go minute by minute. I believe you can do this, and come out stronger and healthier. You deserve that.

Good Luck, Ready. Please keep in touch. I'm in your pocket!

Sign me up! I will be thinking about you and wishing you the pest. Let us know how you are doing when you can.

I'm definitely with you. You are really brave and I wish you the best of luck, let us know how it goes if you can/want to.
Take care

Thank you everyone so much for the kind words and the pocket riding. I really appreciate it!!

The time is so close now

I'm riding along too. I did 35 days inpatient for ED and my life is infinitely better b/c of it! My strongest suggestion is that you follow the program and challenge yourself to take risks, even if you are terrified and crying the whole time. There is no better place to do something scary than when surrounded by many kind and caring helpers.

I'll be thinking of you!