Anger Frustration Disgust Annoyance, I think I figured something out here

While I was seeing old t, we werent exactly open to the point of discussing csa every week, we were not close to even the middle of it, but when we did talk, I would be able to read the disturbing repetative nightmares, related to my csa. Sometimes we werent able to process it right away, but I was able to get them off my chest.

I cant use email with this t, nor hand her anything to read, our deal as it was with my last t was for me to read, im ok with it (with old t).

I have a notebook which I have my past stuff my current stressors my flashbacks and nightmares. I have yet to disclose any of these frequent nightmares and intrusive memories I been having and they are piling up, like a damn tetris game.

im feeling pissed and all these feelings because, im backed up and this stuff is building inside me. Yet I feel I cant approach her with them, she is very good, my old t warned me in a positive way, she said your new t will be able to work more deeply with you, than I could.

New t analizes everything.

((Sweepy))

What will you do?

I am not allowed to e-mail my t either . I was not able to hand her things to read either but she has relaxed her boundary about that as long as I am willing to talk to her about what I write as best I can. you are doing so much brave work sweetpea .I hope all goes well today