[Solepa]

Hello I did not come here for a few months beacause a lot was going on but I feel really stuck now and could use others ideas and views. Thank you in advance.
I started therapy one year ago and I have a therapist since. She went on 5 months maternity leave in between but is back part time. I can see her once in two weeks. We are just opening the horrible topic of CSA and I still have problems with connecting to my emotions. So I went to a body therapist that does public bioenergy exercise and I find it really helpful. I planed an individual session with the body T and she seems really good and also caring. She told me she can´t work with me long term when I have another individual T and that I have to chose if I want to see her or keep working with my old T.
And I don´t know what to do. My old T is nice but after all these moths of working together we are still at the "gate" and not really moving forward. I still have trust issues with her and I wish she would be more affectionate towards me. I wish to have some stronger connection then we have. So maybe it is time to move on and try if I can progress more with somebody else? But then am I not just running away from a hard time ahead with processing the CSA? How do I know for sure?

I don't know how to answer your question...but my gut reaction to what you wrote about maternity leave T is that it is really hard to process csa going just once a week....there are lots of people who have had to go 2x a week during that time....I think it would be really difficult to do while only going 2 times a month..

[Mactastic]

I am not an expert but I would think working through CSA on biweekly appointments isn't the best option. Like Ready said, I think the "norm" is more like twice weekly...it's tough stuff and do you really want to be carrying that with you with long breaks between sessions?

[Outcast_of_RGaol]

That is a difficult situation.
I went through something similar once when I was going to a County Mental Health facility (Gov't subsidized) and was also seeing a psychologist who was in private practice. The CMH had a policy against that and forced me to choose one or the other.
It was explained to me that the basic reason for that was to prevent any conflict of treatment and goal-setting.

What i did was I spoke to my psychologist about it all and even showed him the letter sent to me by the CMH people. And he took the time to absorb it all and give his thoughts on it but then he said that it was my decision alone to make... to make it easier on me he also offered me the opportunity to stick with the CMH and come back to him anytime that I wanted to continue working with him.
In the end I choose to stick with him because I felt as though I was making more progress there.

I say all that because I'd encourage you to do something similar if it seems possible... go to your initial therapist and explain the situation and ask her if you could try working with this "body T" for a while and then come back to her at a later date.

I don't think that there's anything dishonorable or disloyal in that. It's not a marriage; it's professionals trying to provide you a service, hopefully with your best interests in mind.

jmo. Good luck!

[Solepa]

Thank you very much for your replies. I am just trying to cope with another two week break and I can't do it. It is far too long with all these thoughts in my head without any moving forward and letting it out.
So I will go to the therapist that can see me each week. I will see them both this week so I will find out who can do that.

Thank you

[Raging Quiet]

Can you just see body t for body work and other t for CSA stuff?

[Perna]

See if you can think outside the box? Is the body T going to "go" anywhere? I would stay with the old T the rest of this year or something, see what there is to see (and make sure I was not running away) and then, if it did not seem to be working out, if I did not feel I was getting enough from her, I would then make an appointment and see the body T instead.

Or, I would discuss the issue with the old T, tell her about the body therapist and what you want and see what she says/has to offer to the situation. When my T went away for a long time and I hired one online, it was the old T who wanted me to choose and I had no problem choosing her, just it was awkward/difficult to fire the online T.

[sweepy62]

I agree, im starting bits of csa stuff an going weekly is hard, but my t is not in private practice.

[Solepa]

I will see my T on Tuesday and I will ask her if there is any chance she can see me every week. Longer breaks are just too hard to cope with and I can't do it.
If she agrees I could try to stay with her a bit longer. If she can't then I will talk more to the body T about regular therapy with her ( session planed on Wednesday).
So by Wednesday afternoon I will know how I stand and what my options are. I can't keep both as neither one of them agrees with it.