Would you mind your t reacting emotionally to your disclosure during session, any emo

If they don't react emotionally to what I have to say at all, I feel rejected.

I don't mind, only one time my psychiatrist said he felt ill after what I told him and I kind of hated that, because I was only answering his question.

Subject was a suicide attempt in which I had attempted to saw my own head in two.

I can see why it would be confusing... I know this might sound silly but do you feel bad if you show anger to others?

I know ONE of the reasons I do not cry is because it makes me feel uncomfortable when people cry. I often don't know what to do and will console them but feel helpless. I don't want to put other people in that situation so I don't let people see me cry.

Reading your post helped me to understand the power of letting yourself feel and to replace it with authentic feelings. For me it was powerful to see that release it is important for recovery. Thanks for sharing

yes, it makes me feel guilted , somehow, and i dont like people crying in front of me, because, i dont know how to make them stop, so they can feel better, I dont cry, last time i cried was when old t left, and before then it was a very long time. my emotions are all blurred. Like you, I dont let people see my cry.

I dont feel anything, if they dont show emotion, I am not even looking for that, when I talk to them, its hard enough just talking to them, to even monitor to see if they are showing emotion, the only reason I knew she was showing emotion was her tone of voice, and then I looked at her, and she explained it all.

Otherwise, if she does or does not, it does not affect me, no rejection feelings at all.
Now if she were too laugh at or something that was not funny (which is nearly impossible ) then of course i would question it. but to feel rejected by her not showing emotions, no, I am there to work on my emotions, not monitor hers.

I have a very hard time not monitoring my T's emotions. I tend to watch then very closely to pick up on them. I feel more comfortable expressing myself when the other person is also being expressive. But admittedly, I need to pull back from constantly needing their reaction. I don't know how.

T getting angry is difficult though. I don't like it when they raise their voice. Saying "that makes me angry" is fine. Raising your voice is not.

Growly: I understand, I wouldn't want a t raising their voice at me either, the only reason I knew shec was angry, was in her words, her tone, im very perceptive, at no time did she raise her voice. I felt her true emotion, which in fact, made me scared, not because of harm, but I felt her closeness, as she displayed her emotions, of anger and sadness towards me.

My previous T (will I ever stop writing about him?! ) was showing some anger and in his opinion it was toward my abusers while I understood that it was towards me, so I rather didn't like it.

With my current T it is much better; however, to be honest I still feel awkward when she shows emotions... I hate watching her eyes when she is worrying so much as in my opinion there is never a reason to worry... I guess I'm still fighting with myself and am not sure yet if I prefer pretending that I'm okay or not