[monkeybrains21]

Every time I see T the next day is hell. I'm so blah and over it all. I'm exhausted I don't want to get out of bed but always have to. My mind just goes and goes but there's no catching up. I'm very angry and agitated and fed up. The smallest things set me off. I want it all to end. I want it to be over. I want to curl in on myself and be wiped from existence.

I really don't have anything to look forward to. Work is awful, the ppl in power are so dumb I want to bash their faces in. I don't want to talk or have any dealing with them at all.

Wish I had something to look forward to.

This I can relate to.

On Mondays I have individual therapy and then a two hour group therapy. Monday nights I am exhausted and Tuesdays are just as bad. I think it mentally drains me.

Sounds like you are in that same boat........ oh sure enough, I see you in the third row. Grab an oar.

[Fuzzybear]

[(JD)]

Sorry to hear this... imo (my nshpo) you may be going too fast in therapy... if there's a "down" in therapy it should occur in the session and the T should work to bring you back up for "reality" before session ends...

if you are crashing the day after, I would ask the T to go slower (fewer topics or less in depth) and to give you time at the end of the session to adjust.. this is timing for the T...I would suggest at least 10 minutes to close and change to a lighter topic imo... does this sound like a plan to you that might work?

Do indeed talk with your T and see what T thinks?

[monkeybrains21]

Originally Posted by (JD)

Sorry to hear this... imo (my nshpo) you may be going too fast in therapy... if there's a "down" in therapy it should occur in the session and the T should work to bring you back up for "reality" before session ends...

if you are crashing the day after, I would ask the T to go slower (fewer topics or less in depth) and to give you time at the end of the session to adjust.. this is timing for the T...I would suggest at least 10 minutes to close and change to a lighter topic imo... does this sound like a plan to you that might work?

Do indeed talk with your T and see what T thinks?

I don't think we're going too fast or too deep. I don't know y this happens I just want relief. I feel like a ticking bomb and I'm closer to going off everyday. I feel one day I won't be able to hold on anymore and I'll just snap

[Nammu]

In a lot of therapy stuff comes up that a person has been stuffing down, in denile of or has never gotten valadation for before. It's kinda like de-toxing it gets worse before it gets better. Have you told your T about "The smallest things set me off. I want it all to end. I want it to be over. I want to curl in on myself and be wiped from existence."

[monkeybrains21]

Originally Posted by sidestepper

In a lot of therapy stuff comes up that a person has been stuffing down, in denile of or has never gotten valadation for before. It's kinda like de-toxing it gets worse before it gets better. Have you told your T about "The smallest things set me off. I want it all to end. I want it to be over. I want to curl in on myself and be wiped from existence."

No I haven't told her. She already says I skate a thin line very often. That might push her to have me in hospital.

[Nammu]

That might not be such a bad place at this time. You could also get a lot more stuff worked on in a safe place. You are a person who is worthy of a safe place, you don't have to fall down before getting help.

[monkeybrains21]

What's hospital like?

[someone321]

I'm sorry you experience this...
I had the same with my previous therapist, after every single session (and I had 2 sessions per week). I've changed T (for different reasons) but I had the same problem with my current T... However this week was the first time when I didn't leave the window of tolerance after the session Maybe I got used to it but maybe it is because of homework which I got from my T: 15min nap per day everyday and 30min writing about the "inner world" every evening - somehow it calms me down or allow me to not become numb - maybe worth to try?

[monkeybrains21]

Originally Posted by someone321

I'm sorry you experience this...
I had the same with my previous therapist, after every single session (and I had 2 sessions per week). I've changed T (for different reasons) but I had the same problem with my current T... However this week was the first time when I didn't leave the window of tolerance after the session Maybe I got used to it but maybe it is because of homework which I got from my T: 15min nap per day everyday and 30min writing about the "inner world" every evening - somehow it calms me down or allow me to not become numb - maybe worth to try?

I can't take naps. I used to write a lot but now I don't feel like writing. I paint sometimes at night but I go through a lot of paint and in need of more. I've turned my basement into an art studio of sorts. Problem is I can only paint when really angry,agitated,or wanting to spill blood

[Nammu]

Hospitals vary from place to place but the one thing that is the same is that they are safe. You can ask you T what they are like where you live.

[monkeybrains21]

Lol my T isn't a T she's SW. My insurance lied. I think I signed papers when I started. Don't remember what they were. Should probably find out and get a real T. Hospital right by me with behavior services? Dunno. I don't like locked doors unless I lock them. As my SW said I'm a big contradiction of myself. It's as if I'm 2. There's my human empathetic fun. Then how I am 90% of the time. Don't give a damn about anyone or anything. If a massacre happened in front of me I wouldn't bat an eyelash.

Maybe I'm 2 cuz I'm a twin and she died so I incorporated her into me. She was always empathetic and cared for others. I'm just cold always have been. I wanted to do her autopsy no one would let me. I just wanted to know the extent of damage done to her body and how she managed to live as long as she did.

[HazelGirl]

Originally Posted by monkeybrains21

Lol my T isn't a T she's SW. My insurance lied. I think I signed papers when I started. Don't remember what they were. Should probably find out and get a real T. Hospital right by me with behavior services? Dunno. I don't like locked doors unless I lock them. As my SW said I'm a big contradiction of myself. It's as if I'm 2. There's my human empathetic fun. Then how I am 90% of the time. Don't give a damn about anyone or anything. If a massacre happened in front of me I wouldn't bat an eyelash.

Maybe I'm 2 cuz I'm a twin and she died so I incorporated her into me. She was always empathetic and cared for others. I'm just cold always have been. I wanted to do her autopsy no one would let me. I just wanted to know the extent of damage done to her body and how she managed to live as long as she did.

A social worker is a T. That's one of the things they're trained in. You weren't lied to.

[monkeybrains21]

Hazel

If they are the same thing y use 2different names?( curious not trying to be an *****)

[sunnyday]

Originally Posted by (JD)

Sorry to hear this... imo (my nshpo) you may be going too fast in therapy... if there's a "down" in therapy it should occur in the session and the T should work to bring you back up for "reality" before session ends...

if you are crashing the day after, I would ask the T to go slower (fewer topics or less in depth) and to give you time at the end of the session to adjust.. this is timing for the T...I would suggest at least 10 minutes to close and change to a lighter topic imo... does this sound like a plan to you that might work?

Do indeed talk with your T and see what T thinks?

I like this suggestion, think I'll use it at my next session as I too had a meltdown the day after visit w- T.

[HazelGirl]

Originally Posted by monkeybrains21

Hazel

If they are the same thing y use 2different names?( curious not trying to be an *****)

They all have slightly different training. For example, a psychologist has training on research as well as therapy. A social worker has training on community services as well as therapy. A marriage and family therapist (MFT) has training on specifically family and marriage therapy (although they can do individual counseling as well).

[RTerroni]

I sort of felt this way with Group Therapy, which is why I was completely fine when the Therapist decided to end it over ongoing differences between me and the other person in the group.

[Bipolarchic14]

I really hated my job at one point. It took me a year but I found a new job that I love. My point is, decide what you hate and have your t help you make small steps to improve your life. I hated just about everything about my life. Depressed suicidal, the whole 9 yards. I learned that you can't improve without working towards your goals. Also I would let t know how you feel just like you told us on here.

[monkeybrains21]

Originally Posted by Bipolarchic14

I really hated my job at one point. It took me a year but I found a new job that I love. My point is, decide what you hate and have your t help you make small steps to improve your life. I hated just about everything about my life. Depressed suicidal, the whole 9 yards. I learned that you can't improve without working towards your goals. Also I would let t know how you feel just like you told us on here.

See that's the problem I almost everything and everyone. I hate dumb, lazy, ignorant ppl. That sums up the majority if the population if the world. I hate that no matter where I've worked in the last 10yrs I've wound up getting crap pay to do everyone else's job. I hate that every company I've worked for says I'm promotable but when I apply for something I actually have a degree for I get told I'm not qualified. And by qualified it means u have to be an old white man that doesn't know anything but tells ppl they are doing everything wrong.

I hate that I'm called a B, but for a man it's considered good business. I'm tired of being told I'm worth something but never given the opportunity to show it. See we get too good at what we do and then they won't promote since they will never find someone as good.