[sweepy62]

So, I went in today as usual, starting with how my week went, since I saw pdoc last week, she read the notes, and noticed that, pdoc noticed I was heading a little towards depression, we talked about it.

My moods swing some from depressed to irritable, to anxious, in a matter of hours. Just as I thought we were going to talk csa, she dove into how my home life was, as many of you know I live with an unsupportive h and a hateful mother in law, she knew a little about it, but wanted specifics about marriage and homelife.

She said it was important to know this, as it will help her determine week to week how ready we are to continue csa talk. So I told her, and at one point became frustrated, and told her I was frustrated at her for making me feel all these emotions.

I told her she makes me feel vulnerable and like a kid, she told me, it was ok, she told me to look at her, and its ok to be vulnerable in front of her. She told me that my self esteem needs nurturing. I dont know what she meant by that. What does it mean?

My homework is to write what sacrificing for others has meant to me my whole life, and what does it have to do with past trauma.

[HazelGirl]

PTSD causes the mood swings you're describing.

As for what she meant by nurturing your self esteem, I would guess that it might mean she wants you to feel like you can be truly yourself rather than feeling threatened when you feel vulnerable.

[IndestructibleGirl]

I think she wants you to know that she will care for you, and be there, even in your most painfully raw vulnerability. That you don't have to protect her from the very difficult things that have hurt you, you can let her see. Nurturing your self-esteem could mean starting to appreciate yourself and your intrinsic self-worth more, realising you deserve respect and good things, and that you are capable of great things, with her guiding you.

[Auntie2014]

Originally Posted by IndestructibleGirl

I think she wants you to know that she will care for you, and be there, even in your most painfully raw vulnerability. That you don't have to protect her from the very difficult things that have hurt you, you can let her see. Nurturing your self-esteem could mean starting to appreciate yourself and your intrinsic self-worth more, realising you deserve respect and good things, and that you are capable of great things, with her guiding you.

I agree. well stated

[Aloneandafraid]

Originally Posted by IndestructibleGirl

I think she wants you to know that she will care for you, and be there, even in your most painfully raw vulnerability. That you don't have to protect her from the very difficult things that have hurt you, you can let her see. Nurturing your self-esteem could mean starting to appreciate yourself and your intrinsic self-worth more, realising you deserve respect and good things, and that you are capable of great things, with her guiding you.

I agree too. Very good post.