[DelusionsDaily]

So I have therapy today and I'm rather blah-se about it. Normally I really look forward to seeing her and discussing various things but today I am absolutely NOT that way.

I think there's been a lot of relief in realizing I have reached my original set of goals with regards to emotion regulation including anger management. Something I truly did NOT believe was possible when I started. But now 99% of my emotions are in a healthy range and all are managed in a healthy way.

So, in an effort to be prepared for tonight's session I did try to come up with some new goals. The 4 goals I came up with are: 1) improving my self-esteem, 2) improving my relationship with my dad(no major issues just not as close as I'd like), 3) improve my ability to socialize and meet new people, and 4) work to resolve anxiety when away from grandma. I realize I need to start to look at life from more of a goal oriented thought process so when it's time to come up with goals in therapy it's not so hard. There's always something I can improve. It seems that when I sit down to really focus on them and write them out...my mind goes blank. AAARGH!! So very frustrating.

I don't think I'll ever be a social butterfly so to speak but having more friends than one is probably a really good idea and will help to eliminate my isolating tactics when I do get down. I guess I also have some fears I want to face and maybe she could help me process facing those fears. Well that could be another goal.

Anyway, just feel weird not being all supercharged for therapy tonight. It's the first time since November when I started with this current therapist. It was bound to happen at some point. Right? I'm still gonna go obviously. Just disappointed in my lack of excitement.

[RTerroni]

Hope it goes well for you.

[growlycat]

I am finding that my CBT therapy is very goal-oriented these days--I need that habit too

When I don't feel like I am doing all I should have done, I feel like not seeing T at all.

Hope you have a good session!