[sailorboy]

I'm so disappointed. Today's session I felt like I was talking to a stranger. Or that everything out of Ts voice was like the teacher in Charlie Brown. I couldn't stand it anymore and just started getting really defensive, threatened to terminate, etc.

I feel more grounded now and I know we will process it but part of me wants to walk away before I discover more proof that T isn't who I thought/hoped.

I just want to check into a hotel and eat 100 Swedish Fish and M&Ms. Will tomorrow be better or worse do you think?

[Leah123]

I have had ruptures where I felt that same way: unheard, disconnected, challenged, kind of like a nightmare. They did get better, I very often felt a lot better the next day, or at least within a few days.

I think it's very hopeful that you are feeling more grounded and will be able to process it. Your fear is to find "more proof" she's fake, but actually, perhaps you'll find more proof she's real.

I didn't like feeling a divide between me and my T, but later it reassured me she wasn't ********ting me all the time, helped her seem more real actually.

[Favorite Jeans]

100 Swedish fish and M&Ms sounds perfect. As I may have mentioned before, my T's office is conveniently situated around the corner from this bulk candy place and I often stop there after therapy to reward/console myself. My thing is jelly bellies though. Occasionally I like liquorice allsorts. It's like my T and my dentist have a thing going where they drum up business for each other. But why do you have to go to a hotel?

It IS highly distressing that your T is actually the teacher from Charlie Brown and has been deceiving you all this time and pretending to be a T. Anyone would be upset and threaten to quit. Have some Swedish fish now and then text her saying it was uncool to misrepresent herself like that. If she's worth anything she'll have learned to speak normally by next week and you can put this behind you.

[sailorboy]

I wanted to go to a hotel to just be alone instead of going home. I'm home now but I actually do have Swedish Fish here so that's good.

Thanks for the support all!

[RTerroni]

Please don't say the word "hotel" right now (personal issues)

Originally Posted by RTerroni

Please don't say the word "hotel" right now (personal issues)

thats not right to ask her to censor her replies....

[tametc]

Originally Posted by sailorboy

I wanted to go to a hotel to just be alone instead of going home. I'm home now but I actually do have Swedish Fish here so that's good.

Thanks for the support all!

Pardon my ignorance, but what are Swedish Fish?

[RTerroni]

Originally Posted by invisible butterfly

thats not right to ask her to censor her replies....

Yeah its a personal thing

[sweepy62]

Omg its a red fis jelly candy its the best

Originally Posted by sweepy62

Omg its a red fis jelly candy its the best

Oh... not pickled herring then. (No, I knew that actually.)

I'm sorry you had such a crappy session, sailorboy.

[Wren_]

i'm glad sweepy explained what swedish fish are; i was thinking real fish also

how are you feeling about the therapy session and rupture now sailorboy?

[sailorboy]

Originally Posted by tigergirl

i'm glad sweepy explained what swedish fish are; i was thinking real fish also

how are you feeling about the therapy session and rupture now sailorboy?

I'm feeling a little better. Embarrassed. I hope we can patch things up next week.

[Wren_]

I hope you will also