[growlithing]

Tomorrow is my last session with school T. Ever.

I want to write a letter to her but I don't know what to say. I don't have any words for my feelings. Not even in my head. I'm horrible at goodbyes. They make me upset and panic so I run away from them. I cut my feelings off for her months ago. I don't feel the same way I did for her anymore. But I know I feel something. I just don't right now. I will once she's gone forever. I always do.

[growlithing]

I can't do this. I've been crying for hours

[Depletion]

aww growli I hate good byes too. They don't stand for much good for me either. If it's too hard to write maybe you cold just give her a thank you card. You could even make it if you think it would feel more personal. Good luck.

[growlithing]

Originally Posted by Depletion

aww growli I hate good byes too. They don't stand for much good for me either. If it's too hard to write maybe you cold just give her a thank you card. You could even make it if you think it would feel more personal. Good luck.

I might draw her something. I don't know what.

I can't handle things ending. Nothing is permanent and that kills me

[Depletion]

oh growli. I'm sorry this is all so hard for you. I loved one of my college T's so much that I asked if we could be friends afterwords. Of course she said no, and that hurt, but I couldn't be more happy I had her. I think it would be very sweet if you drew her something. I never even thought to do something like that for my college T.

[brillskep]

I'm sorry you're going through this. Goodbyes are part of life. That doesn't mean they aren't hard.

What do you think you'll wish you'd told her, once she's gone?

[Bill3]

I'm so sorry for this loss and the pain it brings.

[eskielover]

I can't handle things ending. Nothing is permanent and that kills me

However I usually can't wait until bad things are over & am seriously glad that nothing is permanent.

It's the good things we never want to end & want to be a permanent part of our lives.

Was thinking if you might get an address where you can send her a letter later on when you do have the words for it...as you said..you always know the words afterwards & sometimes it's easier to write a letter after all the emotional good bye's are said.

Understand how you are feeling

[HazelGirl]

I am so sorry. That has to be extremely painful.

[nottrustin]

Originally Posted by growlithing

I can't do this. I've been crying for hours

Grrowli I am so sorry you are going through this...Out of curiosity which college do you go to?? You don't have to answer if you don't want. I live in New England as well and kiddo is going off to college next year so I was just curious..

[growlithing]

Originally Posted by nottrustin

Grrowli I am so sorry you are going through this...Out of curiosity which college do you go to?? You don't have to answer if you don't want. I live in New England as well and kiddo is going off to college next year so I was just curious..

It's a very very small music school. If I identified it, that would be almost like posting my name and address

[HazelGirl]

Originally Posted by growlithing

It's a very very small music school. If I identified it, that would be almost like posting my name and address

I think I know what one, Growli. Don't worry. I won't say anything.

[growlithing]

Originally Posted by HazelGirl

I think I know what one, Growli. Don't worry. I won't say anything.

Yeah you could figure it out

[growlithing]

She's gone

[Depletion]

Were you able to give her anything?

[growlithing]

Originally Posted by Depletion

Were you able to give her anything?

No. I couldn't write anything and I woke up too late to draw anything

[Depletion]

awww, I'm so sorry. Did the appointment go ok?

[growlithing]

Originally Posted by Depletion

awww, I'm so sorry. Did the appointment go ok?

It was okay. I mean, I don't know how it could have gone better unless she said she wasn't leaving after all.

I know I've said a lot that I didn't like her and I didn't always like her. She was just someone who was "on my side" for three years and that's the longest anyone has ever been emotionally supportive of me

[eskielover]

I know I've said a lot that I didn't like her and I didn't always like her. She was just someone who was "on my side" for three years and that's the longest anyone has ever been emotionally supportive of me

Proves how important it is to our well being to have emotionally supportive people around us.....not always easy to do IRL....but it's still important to