[purplemoon]

Sorry I haven't been around in a while, life tends to get in the way. But I wanted to let you know, I went ahead and emailed my T. He emailed me back and told me that it was absolutely alright to email him - that is why his email is on his business card. I saw him and he was so kind. I think that that is what I like about him, he is always so kind to me. I worry though that he will get tired of me. It just seems like I go in there and everything is always a mess. I don't know how he puts up with me. I have an appointment tomorrow and everything in me does not want to go and everything in me does want to go. Does that make sense? I am so afraid that he will tell me that he can't see me anymore and refer me elsewhere. I could never ever start over again. The other thing I am really worried about is that I seem to tell him things that I would never say to another human being. I don't know how these things spill out of me but they just do. Every once in a while I have an anxiety attack after I leave when I think about what we talked about during our session. I am so ashamed of things that I feel and that I want. Is that normal?

Well I just wanted to thank you all for helping me get the courage up to email my T. You guys are just great!

[Perna]

Congrats, Purplemoon! Step-by-step :-)

Congratulations, purplemoon! You sound excited!

Yes it is normal to feel what you feel. Whatever you feel is normal and interesting to explore and learn more about!

I hear you about the concerns you have. I hope you will tell him all these things! It's so important for him to know how you feel about everything including him and your therapy. It is a good feeling to say those things and to be heard and responded to.

Let us know how it goes if you want to share!

ECHOES