[BlackFeather]

I'm kind of struggling right now. It really sucks not having anyone to talk to. I mean, I'm used to it, but sometimes it really sucks. The therapist that I saw was really great. I did really like her, I just wish I was able to trust her more than I was. Now, that she left I have no one to talk to again. I have a lot of things to talk about and it's really hard not having anyone. No one else understood but her. I wish I had told her more than I did. I wanted her to understand that I was afraid of what would happen when she left. I don't think she understood. I know she had to leave, but I feel like it's my fault she left. Like something I did made her not want to be there to help me anymore. Sometimes, I feel like hurting myself. I wish she knew that but I was scared to tell her. I want to write her a letter asking for help, but I don't know what to say. I don't really know if that would be appropriate since she isn't my therapist anymore. I just want someone to talk to and she was the only one I had. I really feel like I screwed up and I'm mad at myself. I couldn't trust her enough to tell her things that I really needed to talk about when she was my therapist. I didn't tell her how I felt about her leaving. Now that she isn't anymore, I wish I had just done that so she knows how much I'm struggling and so that she would say she was there for me. I need her to be there for me and I miss her. I hate myself and I don't know what to do.

[HazelGirl]

Could you find another T? Yes, she understood, which means that maybe someone else will understand, too. And maybe you will end up being able to trust them more, and able to tell them these things.

[ThisWayOut]

I'm sorry you are struggling. I can relate. Reaching out again is hard, but could also be the best thing you can do for yourself. I terminated with my t yesterday and have a lot of the same feelings about stuff :/