[SilentGirl808]

I feel trapped in therapy. I know during my previous post I said I would terminate therapy with my therapist and wanted to start fresh, but I couldn't exactly leave. In the as I thought would be my last session with him, he made me feel bad and I ended up scheduling another session for Thursday, which I'm dreading. Is this the last? Would this go on until the state can no longer afford paying for it? How am I suppose to leave? I wonder if I should go to therapy or not. I also wonder if I should contact the state to find me a different therapist after my next session. Although, it's difficult to leave for more than one reasons: 1) He's been my only friend, 2) he hugged me a few times and gave me some compliments, 3) he had a hard childhood and I feel so sorry for him, and 4) I just don't want him to be upset. He seemed to be kind of hurt inside when I told him about leaving that I just couldn't leave. What if I don't show up or do leave? He'd probably be sad because he couldn't help me. Before Thursday, I need to figure out how to help him help me and come better prepared. I don't want to leave him while feeling guilty, but on the other hand, I should get ready for employment. I don't know if I'm in good or bad therapy. What would things be like if I hadn't gone to him in the first place and waited until the state find a counselor for me? I feel like this is my fault.

[HazelGirl]

He isn't your responsibility. He is a paid professional. This is like going to a dentist, telling him how to do his job, and then when you notice his teeth are crooked, allowing him to do work on himself instead of you, and then paying him for his time. You would never allow that to happen, I hope. I say just don't go back, screw him, he doesn't need you. And if he does, he needs professional help. And you are not a professional.

[Perna]

Originally Posted by SilentGirl808

He seemed to be kind of hurt inside

Supergirl? You cannot worry about other adults before your own needs. He may be hurt, he may be thrilled, he may not care one whit but none of that has anything to do with what you want and need in your own life.