Letter to x-pdoc

Really really hope he responds!!!! Today!!!!!

Since it is important to you, no harm in trying!!!

Here's the thing...he hasn't responded to anything you have sent yet. I know it's painful, but at some point, you have to let it go and move on. I'm not saying to rush the grieving. Take your time feeling sad and missing him and whatever else you may feel. But I do think that all this false hope is extending your pain, rather than helping you move on.

HazelGirl-I know he hasn't responded in the past and probably won't but I had to try. I am working on letting him go...but it's not as simple as it sounds...at least for me. I'm hoping I can better let go if he doesn't respond to this one but I know it won't be easy but it is something I am figuring out how to do. So I don't continue to cause more pain for myself.

And I totally understand that. I really, really do.

But if your focus continues to be on "getting him back" as your letter seems to indicate, you can't truly move on. First, I think focusing on letting go of getting back what was is where you need to focus, even though it's hard.

Yeah I seem to lose that focus sometimes. It was a conversation with mom the weekend before last that spurred this recent obsession with getting him back again. I wanna say I don't know how to let go but I was doing exactly that the last 5 or so months. I just gotta get back to that somehow.