[JaneC]

Just came from session after a week caught up in my own head. trying not to feel and being frustrated at myself for not getting with the programme and knowing that the way forward is to allow these feelings and change the pattern of how I treat myself when I do feel.

Having all of this and other obvious unhelpful thought patterns pointed out to me today has left me feeling even more useless!!

Then T tells me that he can't see me for the next two weeks at usual time and I am straight away feeling deserted! We try to fit me into his other days which is too hard so I tell him.....lets just leave it! Of course that is a good plan....when I need support I come out with "don't worry bout me". He said no that's too long between seeing you.......and then......oh do you need a break from therapy?!!!!!!!! What the heck?

And I of course now I wonder if he needs a break from me! Is he sick and tired of my lack of progress and constant neediness.

Help! Just can't seem to get out of my own head lately. Feeling on verge of breaking apart a bit at the seams.

This is soo frustrating! Any feedback appreciated.

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[iheartjacques]

I've learnt to take any extra appointments offered to me when I've missed other ones.

[HazelGirl]

I think he was trying to be sensitive to your feelings and experiences. It sounds like he really did want to see you sooner, but didn't want you to feel forced into it.

[JaneC]

Good reality checks, thank you both. I know I needed to hear that.

I hate that my feelings are not right at times like this.