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On Monday I saw my NP about my episode over the weekend and she said it sounded like a manic episode. My T agreed. That means I'm bipolar and since that realization I have been trying to deny the episode and therefor the bipolar. Why? I dunno. I suspected the bipolar long before this. So, I don't understand the denial but that is definitely where I'm trying to be.
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Because it's scary. My father was diagnosed as bipolar and I have had major depression my whole life. I have a lot of markers for developing bipolar disorder in the next 5-10 years. It's a scary thing to consider.
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I'm head long into a manic episode right now. The hardest part for me is self control. I'm currently fighting the urge to become voilent. It's killing me not to let myself break a window or something. Maybe talking about it will help calm me down. Is there anything in particular that concerns you about your dx?
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I think sometimes I wanna be non-mentally ill. Depression was bad enough to deal with but manic episode was far and above worse than the depression. Being extremely agitated, anxious, and irritable with racing fragmented thoughts, super high energy, and highly distractable was worse than AWFUL. The end result is the same: wishing for death. Ugh! Just thinking about that episode makes my skin crawl!
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#5
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Quote:
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My path from depression to stability led through bipolarity. It was alarming, but I now see bipolar as evidence of progress.
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CantExplain, you are awesome.
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I'm slowly finding out the harder you cognitively cling to denial the closer you are to accepting. Good luck on your journey.
Last edited by lostwonder; Oct 12, 2014 at 07:43 PM. Reason: fix typo |
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