[Kated1984]

I see my therapist monthly, cut down from fortnightly as my therapist feels I don't need as much help any more. She has helped me a lot - made me see why I feel the way I do, tried to help me understand why my parents were so rubbish and let go of the negativity and help me cope with anxiety by teaching me some really good techniques. There is no attachment though, I mean if she was leaving tomorrow i'd be happy enough to be referred to a colleague as long as they knew how to help me.
Last night I had a really vivid dream about therapy. I was sat in her office, in a chair opposite her as usual but in the dream she wasn't sat on a chair, she was sat on a bed with loads of cushions. It was like a doctors couch because it had that hygiene paper stuff over it but it was also covered in colourful cushions and she was chilling out on it. She told me to come and lay on the cushions next to her and as I was talking to her she was stroking my arm.
I woke up feeling a bit odd about it. I don't want any of this in reality. I wouldn't want her to touch my arm or hug me or anything like that. I'm thankful for the help she's given me but I also like that I can talk to someone that has no place in my life.
It's freaked me out a bit to be honest

[CantExplain]

I think therapy lowers ones inhibitions and that gives ones subconscious more room to explore. A dream is still just a dream, however.

[Petra5ed]

It's not like it has to be about sex or anything. The dream sounds good, sounds like maybe you have gotten close and have integrated your therapist into your life.

[Kated1984]

It wasn't sexual at all petra5ed.

It was more like she'd morphed in to a mother type figure and was listening and comforting me like an upset child but I've never looked at her like that and she doesn't treat me like that and I don't want her to.

[Petra5ed]

Originally Posted by Kated1984

It wasn't sexual at all petra5ed.

It was more like she'd morphed in to a mother type figure and was listening and comforting me like an upset child but I've never looked at her like that and she doesn't treat me like that and I don't want her to.

Dreams aren't literal, they're symbolic. The other thing I've been told at least is everyone in your dreams can and usually does symbolize something about you. Maybe it just means you have gotten better at being your own internal mother figure.

Originally Posted by Petra5ed

Dreams aren't literal, they're symbolic. The other thing I've been told at least is everyone in your dreams can and usually does symbolize something about you. Maybe it just means you have gotten better at being your own internal mother figure.

I do a lot of dream work as part of my therapy, and my t says the same thing that people in our dreams symbolize some aspect of ourselves. I agree that maybe it's about you being your own internal mother figure. But it's your dream and the answer's inside you!

[Kated1984]

I hear you on the dreams being symbolic. That would make sense but I don't think it symbolises my own internal maternal figure. I think I'm a long way off that.

That's true that everyone in your dream represents a part of you, so what does your therapist mean to you? You don't crave her touch so how did it feel to have her stroke your arm like that in the dream? Is there a part of her that you would like to have to maybe sooth yourself.
Also, her office, is it a safe place for you? Maybe this was you being represented by your t, in her office you feel comfortable and chilled out. Also the tissue over the couch, maybe a layer of protection that you still have

[Freewilled]

I'm wondering if you feel more attached to or connected with your T than you can consciously realize.