Getting Blamed

Do you ever feel like you get the blame for something you didn't do soley because you're the client?

My T is going to a conference in December and will miss our session. So normally when that happens, I schedule an appt with my Pdoc for that week fir support and someone to check in with. My Pdoc's assistant called me to make the appt for December. I asked her if I could make that appt and still keep my appt this Friday. She told me I didn't have an appt this Fri?!?! My Pdoc had to schedule me last time for 6 weeks because she was so busy. The freaking receptionist didn't put in my appt again...

Two appts ago, the receptionist changed my appt because my Pdoc had a meeting. But she told me the wrong time. So I wound up showing up late and had to wait an hour for her to fit me in. And I got the blame!

It's b.s. I never miss my appts. To me it's not a doctor appt. My Pdoc isn't just my doctor. She's a support for me. I need her. Why would I miss my appt? It's too important. But no...I'm the "mental health client" so it's my fault. Or there will be some excuse that I'm not being patient and they're busy so mistakes will happen. It's not fair. Either the receptionist hates me or is a complete screwup.

At least this time I have the appt card proving it's the receptionist's fault.

That sounds quite infuriating.

That would drive me NUTS.

It might just be paranoia (though I don't really ever suffer from any paranoia), but I think they are judging me based off of my diagnoses. It was written in my file that I have BPD. About 3 months ago, I asked my primary doc to take it out of my file for fear of being judged. She agreed to. But I've known the staff at my Pdoc's office for over a year now and they've always had access to my file.

I am used to people assuming that I'm a liar, manipulative, or that I enjoy drama. It's a common stigma for BPD. But I'm not that way. I don't usually care if someone I barely know judges me that way, but when it starts affecting my treatment...I mind...a lot.

These people work in a mental health office. They should know how important it is for clients to see the Pdoc. And they already know I fear them... My blood pressure is only high when they take it.

My Pdoc did yell at them once before (in front of me). I had called to tell my Pdoc that I went to the emergency room for my depression, but they let me go home and told me to make an appt with my Pdoc. The staff ignored my msg!

It's really frustrating.

I don't think they're singling you out. They just sound sloppy and unable to do their job well.

I hate being blamed.