[evahis]

well, I finished therapy with my T earlier this week.
Been crying a little since then, which is out of the ordinary for me.
I didn't cry when I said goodbye, but that is just me being avoidant I guess and protecting myself.

Still feel like there is loads more work I need to get through with T, but I can't afford to go back at the moment

I said I might go back because this lessens the loss, she understood that.

Feeling sad now but also hating the part of me which wants to run back...

Also feeling like my t is trying to keep me there for financial reasons so she can make more money out of me!! (which I hope isn't true but money is a major part of it isn't it, we pay them!)
also if I go back, it just means I have to say goodbye at a later stage.


Any support or thoughts from people who have been in this situation appreciated.

[jelly-bean]

I haven't been in your situation but I can certainly understand your feelings. Your T has been a major support in your journey to get better and losing that support can be very upsetting. I hope you can manage to not go back but, if you aren't ready to step away, then go back and get what you need out of the relationship.

[Arha]

I am having to face a similar thing. We are in a tapering off phase where I see my T less often, and I do not like it. I don't feel ready.
When we finish, the last time will be a month after the previous, and will be a "how is it going" one...
I dread after that.

Did you taper off?

[evahis]

Hi Arha.
No, I didn't taper off. We did discuss tapering it off but I made a clean break because of finances and to test the water to be honest; can I cope without seeing her?
It ended this week
It also finished because we agreed on a set number of sessions (my idea) which could of lasted longer if I'd wanted to. But really it is due to financial reasons that I stopped. I have done lots of work with my t but I know and she knows there is more to do.
(I'm hoping to go back but dunno if I can afford it.)

[ThingWithFeathers]

I'm sorry you're in a situation of not being able to continue t for financial reasons. I believe your t wanted you to stay because she cares about your wellbeing, not because she wants your money - she could always fill that spot with someone else. She's obviously going to be there for you when your circumstances change. I hope that's not too far away.

[Arha]

I hope it works out for you.

[growlycat]

I've had to reduce sessions with T due to financial reasons--it does hurt!!

[MindfulMoment]

I hated leaving my last T evahis, so I empathise with you (((HUGS))). I didn't cry when I left her either for similar reasons to you. I've got a new T, but I still sometimes think about my old one (her voice gently questions me in my head) and don't think that's a bad thing. Have you tried expressing how you feel about therapy being over for now in writing, that really helped me. Also, reflecting on all of the things that she had taught me and keeping a piece of her in my head and heart was quite comforting. Stay strong, trust me it does get easier. X