[amayastar]

I don't like to feel anything.
I great at humor and happiness..
I don't like to be sad, I hate being scared.
I try too avoid anything that can trigger those emotions
Thats a big reason I SI.

Does anyone else hate to feel?
I don't think starting therapy
Wad a good idea..

[brokenwarrior]

For me, any emotion most likely triggers me. I also think that starting therapy was a bad idea because it focus me to feel things and I don't like like. I always leave feeling unsafe and there has been a few times I've felt in a full on crisis. I wish I could get past this.

[secretgalaxy]

I use SI as a way to just feel neutral. If I am feeling too numb,I SI, or vise versa with strong emotions. In the beginning, I would SI right after therapy because of the emotions and how overwhelmed I would be. There were a few crisis moments, but they have lessened some through out the years. As I have learned to trust my T, my urges have lessen as well.

Originally Posted by amayastar

I don't like to feel anything.
I great at humor and happiness..
I don't like to be sad, I hate being scared.
I try too avoid anything that can trigger those emotions
Thats a big reason I SI.

Does anyone else hate to feel?
I don't think starting therapy
Wad a good idea..

Yeah I'm with you on this, therapy is bringing up horrible feelings for me, I had no idea this would happen. It doesn't seem to be this way for everyone. I also get some good feelings too sometimes, maybe if we carry on there will be more of the good feelings and the horrible ones will get less? Have you had any of the good ones? It''s a good question - was it a good idea to start therapy? I feel like someone should have warned me.