[Lilah525]

I'm new here and really struggling. I stopped going to therapy. I saw a therapist at the school I go to. I was only allowed to go there 1 semester, but I felt really connected to the person I saw there. It's really hard for me to trust anyone. She was the only person that I actually trusted enough to tell things to. I don't have any friends. I think I might be a little depressed, my family doesn't know, but they're the type of people who would tell me to just get over it and move on with my life. Right now I have no one. I keep thinking about cutting. Sometimes I have thoughts of wanting to kill myself and it's scary. I thought about sending an email or contacting this therapist because I really need someone to talk to and I think she is the only person who is able to help me. I don't know what she would be able to do for me though. She can't see me as a patient anymore. I'm not even really sure what I want from her other than to know that she cares and that I can reach out to her if I need to. She's told me that she cares before, but I don't know how she would react receiving an email from me asking to talk when I'm not her patient anymore and she doesn't have to care about me at all anymore. I just don't know if that would be considered crossing a boundary or not. I think I just need to know that someone is there for me, that someone does care about what happens to me. I just want it to be her.

I can really feel the pain you're in, and can relate. Can you contact that therapist for a referral? There's a good chance she would respond to that, and you would have a better chance at finding a therapist you can work with if the other one knows your issues and needs. It's less of a blind leap. In the meantime, a warmline, hotline, and crisis line all offer ways to at least talk to someone. They might also be able to help you figure out where to go for help.

And keep posting here.

i think you really need to see that therapist.

please take care of yourself. keep posting on here, and feel free to pm me for a chat.

i'm in your corner.