[Ad Intra]

As some of you may know my old-T left last months without warning. The day she left I cried a lot, but didn't cry much after that. Sometimes I would think of her. Now that Christmas and school is over I'm thinking about her a lot. I'm feeling terrible and i wish badly she was still working at the agency.
Thanks for the help; it means a lot to me.

Have you started seeing a different T? After a while the feelings will go away some; it is very easy to make a connection when seeing a T due to the nature of the conversations.

Have you tried to pick up some hobbies to distract your self?

I don't know if this will be useful to you but I found it helpful and cathartic to write him a letter (not to send, just for me). Expressing my emotions honestly and in depth was important to help me process them. I'm thinking about taking the letter to current T.

[ScarletPimpernel]

Basically, you're grieving a loss. Grief takes time. Allow yourself to feel your feelings.

I haven't seen one of my Ts in 9 years and I still miss her. But the feelings gradually got less intense.

One thing I've learned: the more you try to forget something, the harder it is to forget it. It's because you'reconstantly reminding yourself, you're fighting your thoughts and emotions. You have to acknowledge the thoughts and feelings and accept them for what they are. Only then does it become easier.

I think time will help some. I had an unethical therapist and I filed a complaint and that has helped me A LOT. It doesn't sound like that is the case with you, but writing it out might help. That was helpful to me. Therapy is a weird relationship. Very strange and weird and awkward when it ends like that.

You can say that again puzzle_bug, therapy is a weird relationship alright!! the weirdest.