About to go into hospital... TRIGGER WARNING

thank you so much everyone. it truly lifts my mood to see that I have friends on here thinking about me. you have helped me an enormous amount.

I've been in here for 3 weeks now. they said I will get discharged in 4 weeks or less. I saw my therapist on Monday and it was the most amazing thing. she was so lovely and kind and supportive, it somehow managed to kick me out of the dark hole and motivate me.

I want to get better. I'm not suicidal anymore, thank God. I've chosen life. I've decided that if I'm going to live, I will live properly. and I believe I'm no longer a risk to myself or others. the antipsychotic has taken away my voices and I've had a diagnosis of PTSD. I don't want to kill myself anymore, I want to be here, and I want to go home and see my therapist and be with my dogs and learn to live again, and it is such a massive relief that finally, finally I can say that.

I haven't been restrained or IM'd (injected in the arse while being pinned down) for 2 weeks.

I really badly want to leave here now. psychiatric units really hit home how much I will appreciate my independence and freedom once I'm out of here.

so yes, hopefully i'll be out in a few weeks.

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are patients allowed to use computer or laptops in the pshyc wards?

my section was revoked on the 26th February, and i am leaving next Thursday and being discharged on the 11th March!

i'm so excited! i'm feeling a hell of a lot better and much stronger and more able to cope with things. i am still ill of course, but not suicidal or having self harm urges. i just can't wait to get home. it's been the longest, hardest, most gruelling and most fulfilling 2 months of my entire life.

and i made it!!